Guilt ✹ Tracob

8

"Hey guys. I'm happy to announce I've been officially reinstated into the management.... and...." I filmed a video. "I'm done with my tour!!!!!" I cheered, and did a happy dance. "Although the tour was amazing, and I met some amazing people... it's great to be back home with my friends and my family. I did bring my brother, Tyde, and my sister, Sage, with me... but it's not the same as being here. A lot has happened since I've been on tour. I..." I blushed. "I met someone who I really had a connection with. Not just a physical connection, but we had an emotional connection, and it made me really happy to be able to spend the tour with him. We aren't dating... no. We're just pretty great friends now!" I smiled. "Frankly... there's still someone I have feelings for, but that is not what I'm here for......" I paused to add dramatic effect. "I'm going to be releasing a.... new album in 2015! It's coming along beautifully, but I don't know exactly when next year that it will be out. I'm just sure it will happen next year, and I've been working on the music for the past year and a half.."

/

"Hey... uh..." I got a call, and answered it.

"Oh, hey.." I said.

"Can we talk?" He asked. "In person... please.."

"I don't know.." I sighed. "I'm working on a video right now, and I need to get this uploaded.."

"Troye, please..." He begged and pleaded. "I can drive over there, or we can talk in a neutral place...."

"Okay... You can come over. It's only me, Tyde and Sage here.." I said.

"Thank you.. I-....Thank you.." He nearly said something else, but stopped himself.

/

The following few minutes were slow as I waited for my guest. Once he arrived, I was done with my video, and it was online.

"Hey.." I answered the door, and there he was. Jacob Bixenman.... The man I fell hard for.. He was looking down, as if he was hiding some pain he felt.

"Hey.." He said. I let him in, and he removed his coat, setting his keys on the table. "Thank you for... letting me come over..."

"No problem.." I said. "Whatever you need... I'm here."

"That's the thing.." He said, "That's the complication I have here.." We went to my room to speak in private.

"Complication?"

"You said whatever I need.... that you're here for me.." Jacob said.

"I did.."

"I need.... you..." He said. "The guy... I was with.." Jacob hesitated. "He was a fake. He stole my money, and beat me up after I went back into my room that day you were there... He left this.." Jacob moved his hair to expose a massive bruise that was just now starting to heal. "I wanted to go to your shows... I really did.. but I had this, and I didn't want to ruin your tour. I knew it'd be great for you to be happy on your own for a while..."

"That's the thing..." I said. "I wasn't the happiest I could've been..." I looked into his eyes. "I was missing someone.."

"I'm so sorry you had to see me with him...." He said. "It was wrong of me.."

"I'm sorry I kicked you out of the hospital room when I was laid up.." I said. "You were right. You only wanted to make sure I was okay, and you're the best.. the best thing I've ever had..." I took his hand. "I fell so hard for you when we first met... and our breakup broke me more than you may have thought...." I wiped away a tear. "I love you so much...." He leaned in to kiss me, cupping his hand around my cheek.

"I missed being with you..." Jacob blushed. "I heard you got your channel back and running..."

"I did.." I smiled. "I explained to my fans about us.... they love you.. almost as much as I do..." It felt lovely to hold him in my arms again, but I knew there had to be a different way to celebrate us getting back together. "Do you want to join me in a video?"

"Are we going to announce our relationship?" He asked, smiling.

"If you want.." I smiled, kissing him on the head. "I missed this... being able to hold you in my arms, and call you mine.."

"I missed this, too..." Jacob blushed, kissing me.

/

"Hello everyone. It's Troye Sivan.." I started the video alone, so Jacob could make an entrance. "I have some exciting news. I know I said in the last video that I had news... and yes.... that was exciting, but this is big for me, and I hope you're happy for me. As you know... I've come out online now... and I've been open about my sexuality, and I've been talking about someone being on my mind. This man.." I blushed. "He's such an amazing guy, and although he's made mistakes, he's still the best thing that has ever happened to me. He's perfect in my eyes, and I hope you see that about us both, and... our relationship.." I giggled. "I'm so happy... and it's time to reveal who he is. You'll recognize him..."

"Me!" He popped into view.

"We're back together, and staying stronger only in each other's arms.." I said, taking his hand. "Jacob's the sweetest man I've ever known, and I'm proud to say... he's my boyfriend."

"I love you.." He smiled, leaning in for a kiss.

"I love you.." I blushed. "That's all guys.. Do you want to do the wink?"

"Right... you still wink... Okay.." He said.

"Ready?" He nodded. "Byyyyyeeee!" We winked simultaneously, and started laughing as I shut off my camera.

"Oh, that was so cheesy.." Jacob teased.

"The outro is supposed to be cheesy.."

"No.." He said, wrapping his arms around me as we laid on my bed. I sat in front of him, on my laptop as I edited the footage. Jacob sat his chin on my shoulder, his breath brushing across my skin. "What you were saying about me..."

"If that was cheesy.. Then good.." I giggled. "I meant for it to be.."