for her 🌹

🌹 02

i think that's when i knew. not when i was up at 3am crying over losing you, not when living without you seemed like living without my heart.
it was in the moment when i was standing beside you, with the sun hitting your eyes, listening to your silly giggle. not just because you were the most beautiful thing i had ever seen, but because you were made me truly happy. your laugh resonated in my bones, and your thoughts ran instead of the blood in my veins.
it was in the moment when i only took care of myself because you made me realize how important i am, when you taught me how to love. myself, and you.
it was in the 6am panick attack and only the thought of you, somewhere across the world, calming me down.
it was when your heartbeat became the only sound i ever wanted to listen to.
i think i knew, not when i realized i needed you to be alive,
but when you made me realize that i needed myself too.
you helped me find something I didn't know was lost.
-i love you.