Excerpts from a Teenager's Diary | Completed [UNDER MAJOR EDITITING]

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I sometimes wonder if I made a mistake letting him go. It's not like he was ever mine. But if I could have tried harder he would have been, you know what i mean?

I am constantly torn between 'he doesn't deserve it. You're not supposed to try harder when it comes to him. Because he never made an effort' and 'if u could have tried harder, he would have been yours. If all that crap wouldn't have happened he could have been yours'."