Innocent Love

Chapter 31

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I didn't know why he avoided me. Did I do something wrong? Did I made him mad? Or....did he hear about the rumors about me...? I worried about that. The next day I wanted to asked:" Yamamoto-kun... umm if you wa-" he didn't let me end the sentence and already answered before knowing my question:" Sorry but today I can't...sorry." I was kinda sad but replied with a smile:" Ah... no it's alright... then see you tomorrow..." I turned around and walked away. I wanted to asked him why he avoided me but I couldn't. I was too scared to asked. But I wanted to know so I decided to ask him tomorrow. Finally it's time to ask:" Yamamoto-kun do you have a bit time for me?" He looked at me and he saw that I was nervous. Then he sighed and looked away:" Yeah... what is it?" "Umm... so I wanted to ask... why you are avoiding me?" I saw that he was a bit surprised. Maybe because I noticed and he don't wanted to. He looked at me and said:" I'm not avoiding you..." I kinda was angry but sad as well. Because he lied to me. I'm not important to him so it's alright that he lies to me. But then without j noticed it I thought out loud:" Why... why did you lie to me...." when I realized it that I said it out loud I said quickly sorry and ran away. He wanted to say something but I couldn't hear it. After a bit running I stopped and reached for air. After that I stood up and a band reached my shoulder. I turned around and it was Akira. He said:" wait up... I'm... i'm sorry for lying to you..." i looked at him and said gently:" it's fine. It's my fault for being so clingy..." "you aren't clingy!! You never was... and you never will..." he said while looking at me with wet eyes. He tried not to cry. I love you so much Yamamoto-kun even if you think I'm weird I want you to know. I took his hand and looked straight into his eyes:" Yamamoto-kun.... I... love you... i know it's weird to hear that from a guy... but I love you!" He looked like he was in pain and looked away:" I'm sorry.... but I can't... reply your feelings...."

(AKIRA'S PV)
Since he got out of the hospital I avoided him. I wasn't ready to talk with him. After all he doesn't know anything about us anymore. Our first time we met. Our first kiss. Our first time. Our first argue. Everything. It broke my heart and I just couldn't. One day he asked me:"Yamamoto-kun do you have a bit time for me?" I sighed and looked away:" Yeah... what is it?" He seems really nervous. And then he asked me:" why are you avoiding me?" I was a bit surprised and I didn't want that he noticed it. Then I couldn't do anything else but to lie:" I am not avoiding you..." It was silence for a few minutes but then I heard something. It was Tama with a quiet voice saying:" Why.... why did you lie to me...?" I looked at him with widened eyes and he said quickly sorry and ran away. Before I could say something he already left. I ran after him. Finally he stood still. And I reached his shoulder and said:" Wait... up... I'm sorry for lying to you...." I looked at the ground. I heard his gently voice saying:" it's fine.. it's my fault for being so clingy..." i hate myself. I hate myself cuz he must say something like that:" You aren't clingy! You are not.... and you never will be...." I love you so much Tama... but I thought about your future... if you are gonna stay with me you won't have a happy future... suddenly he took my hand and looked straight through my eyes and saying:"Yamamoto-kun.... I.... love you... i know it's weird to hear that from a guy... but I love you!!" I was surprised. I wanted to reply his love but I couldn't not after that I thought about your future. I just can't... I looked away my voice was trembling:" I'm sorry.... but I can't... reply your feelings..."