Lacey

Chapter 4.5

I awake.

I head straight for the bathroom. Its been three months, oh my.

And in these three months, I've rekindled with my first love.

Jay was forever, lol. You know, tho? Cause they be like "If you love something... let it go. If it comes back.." and he did!

Oh gosh.

He woke up & knocked on the door. "I can hear you girl! All in there gawking about me.. got a nigga feeling love. Aw!"

Omg, I didnt know I was talking.. I thought I was writing in my mental diary.

lol.

"Don't get quiet, keep talking bout me. Who you talking to anyway?"

"I wasn't even talking see!" I replied being sassy as I walked out.

"Yes you was. Lil dumbass was probably talking to yo' self." He said.

I could feel the hole he was digging in my ass with his eyes.

"Ugh. Shut up." I say as I plop down on the bed.

"So. Aye. Wanna get married tho?" he said to me. I was thinking like 'huh?' at this moment.

He continued. ".. I mean. You love me, you know I love yo' lil light skin ass.. we been knowing each other for fucking ever. Why not?"

"You forreal? Like forreal forreal?" I say, so much disbelief in my voice.

"No shit." He says, cocky as hell.

"Look. You don't have to answer now ma. You got til whenever. But, don't think Im going to wait forever." At that instant he finished tying his shoe & walked out.

I didn't even notice he was putting his clothes on. Damn.

He got me stuck. I wanna marry him, I do. But.... after Yu? Man.

I love that boy. But, I feel like I'm dragging him along, I still love Yu honestly. Where is this coming from? I left Rashad "Yukon" Patterson six months ago in Columbus. I don't love him!

But, yet.. I do. I do love Yu still. He is my heart.

Damn.