✯ Dream Of You ✯

Chapter 10

That hug made me wanna stay like that forever. I had a major force inside telling me not let go but my head told me to let go. He doesn't remember, he didn't remember i guess. I can not let myself get lost by words, they are just words...

So i step back...

"No." i pause "You didn't remember....Do you even know how much i waited for this? Do you even know how long i've been dreaming about the moment you would recognize me and run into my arms and say you need me, that there hasn't been a friend like me in your life since..." i said now sobbing..." Do you know when you cry every night? Not just crying...The worst type of crying, that is the silent one. The one when everyone is asleep. The one where you feel it in you throat, and your eyes become blurry from the tears. The one where you just want to scream. The one where you have to hold your breath and grab your stomach to keep quiet. The one where you can't breath anymore. The one....when you realize...the p-p-person t-t-that mean-n-n-t the MOST to you........is gone." i said letting my head down shaking it briefly...."I'm sorry, but you are gone.I'm nothing.I used to be...But things change....now i'm just......a part of a......Dream..." i say finishing with a harsh swallow.."Thank you for being so nice Selena" she smiled awkwardly "Bye Justin.." i say turning around letting all those tears fill the place until i was running home....

I felt like crying the entire night, eating chocolate and sleeping for a very long time after that...i felt like  i never wanted to wake up again. But that's not me! That's the old me, i'm a stronger person now.

It was all just a dream, let's live life.

11am

I wanted to wake up and feel good. And feel like it was right to be there. And I am 'cause although what i've been trough yesterday leaves me really sad and depressed at some point, this is my life and I've gotta make sure I'm happy.

I'ts not easy. But I will get trough it, one day, maybe today.

I get up looking in the mirror, the Image of a young and hurt girl could be seen reflected on that transparent glass... A still Messy haired doll who still looks okay.

I brush my hair putting it in a big and messy bun and I put on a white flowy dress and some sandals.

It's hot outside today so.

I go downstairs and there's my dad, eating breakfast looking happy as usual, i wish I was a bit more like him.

"Good morning dad!" I say kissing him on the cheek.

"Good morning honey!" he says taking his eyes away from the newspaper for a minute to look at me.

"Can I go explore today?" I say as I grab a toast and put some butter on it.

"Yes, of course you can, but be careful honey, and don't forget that, hmm today's afternoon...you know..you have the meeting at the studio with someone..." he says taking a sip of his coffee during the awkward pause.

"With who?" I say siting in front of him curious.

"Well, i might have  found something that will launch your career as a singer" he says with a small smile.

"OMG, what?" I say now getting excited.

"Well, just, you'll see okay baby?" he says smiling now more confident.

"Okay" I say letting out a long sight. "I'll just get going, bye dad i'll be home around 6 is that okay?" I ask him.

"No, just meet me at the studio, here's the adress, YOUR car has GPS honey" he says handing me some keys.

"WHAT?! Omg thank thank thank you!! Is it outside? or where, what? how...." I say smiling big.

He lets out a chuckle "Yes it is outside, go meet me at the studio around 5...here" he says handing me a paper with the address.

"Okay daddy bye bye" I say getting out of my house and looking for my car everywhere.

It was windy outside, my hair was now all over my face and not a bun anymore and I bumped into someone.

"Whoa! I'm so sorry, are you okay?" someone says but i don't know who 'caus ei'm still trying to get to  a normal posture.

"Oh no it's okay, it was my fault anyway." I say now seeing a handsome looking boy carring a little girl, oh wait not a handsome boy, that's Justin, great.

"Oh you, i'm sorry, have a good day." I say about to walk away, but he grabbed my arm.

"Faith, no! Stop it! I'm sorry okay. I'm sorry I didn't recognize you at first but that oens't mean i don't remember you. Please stop this i missed you." he says looking desperate.

I don't really know what to day. He is right, this is a bit childish.Oh, what am I thinking, he ddn't recognize me...but this is stupid he obviously didn't he has met so many people after that.Oh screw it! And with that I hugged him, and then placed a soft kiss on Jazzy's forehead, his sister that I love and missed.

"I remember you Faith" she says with her adoring smile.

"Aw, baby I missed you" I say wrapping my arms around her small back and looking at justin who was smiling.

"I'm sorryI overreacted." I say."You did a bit, but it was my foult and i'm sorry for no recognizing you at first. "It's okay." I say.

"Well, i have to go, see you around." I see now placing a kiss on his cheek, but he grabbed my face placing a kiss on my forehead.

"See you around" he says, I smile and walk away waving at them.

I change my mind so fast is scary.

But i'm happier now.