Filling The Cup

Chapter 1: Introduction

Here I am wondering how to begin. I am lost for words in midst of my thoughts. I have tried filtering my thoughts. I asked myself what shall I include and what I shouldn't. Would I be preaching or would be telling a story. Do I plan to make it real or should I sugar coat my words.

From time to time, I had written then I had stopped. I reviewed my what I had written, revised it but I end up deleting my work. It had been three years since I had written anything long. Sure I had blog but I stopped updating it.

It's definitely not a autobiography but definitely a memoir of my spiritual journey. I had face spiritual battles in my walk with Jesus.

Even now I am in battle.

Every time someone asked me for my testimony I had declined again and again. I don't have any intention of sharing in a large crowd. I stayed behind the crowd and sat at the second to the last row in our sanctuary during Sunday Fellowship.

I always said my life isn't so inspiring. Would anyone be inspired with my story if they had found out I have no job? I am not married. I have no kids. I still live in parents' house. I had no savings account.

But the Lord said, “You have a job! You work for me! I have provide for your needs. I am your testimony. I am with you."

God has always been faithful in keeping his promises in my life. He has never let me down. So now is the best time to tell my spiritual journey with Jesus.

At the beginning, I doubt myself and my ability to write. I don't real believe in my self but I do believe in God. I can do anything with the help of the Holy Spirit, who is in me. Greater is he, who is in me. Jesus has never left me. He has always been there even when I am alone. God will never leave me nor forsake me.

Honestly speaking, I don't want to go back and remember all those painful memories but I had survived and came out triumphant because of Jesus Christ.

I can no longer hide my thoughts nor hide my story. I want to write my story so anyone reads this they know there is a God. He is my Abba Father. He is a good father. He is faithful. He is slow to anger and abundant in love and mercy.

Jeremiah 20:9
But if I say, “I will not mention him or speak anymore in his name, his words is in my heart  like a fire. A fire shuts up in my bones. I am weary holding it in, indeed, I cannot."

"Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord  God is an everlasting rock."
( Isaiah 26:4 ESV)