Filling The Cup

Chapter 14 Lazy Cat

More Often, people think I am a lazy cat. There is a certain truth to it but only at some points.

They thought, I am lazy to look for a job. I am a freeloader. They could be right. The best things in life are those things that are free. I know it's a cliché but it is true.

2015, I struggle looking for a job. I applied got hired but my hypertension was in the way. So I need to get a medical clearance for it. I applied for many different jobs but failed.

2014, I stopped looking for a job, someone message me to apply as a teacher. I got hired, though I know I was terrible in grammar. I became an English teacher for Koreans for five months. When it was time to leave. My health was already suffering. It was more than twelve hours a day job.

This year 2016, when I tried again it is either I am sick for six weeks, tenants left or did not paid in time or my mom borrowed the money and among other reasons. I don't like to borrow money from my brothers. I dislike having debts.

But when, I stop, trust and obey God, suddenly, the tenants paid, blessing comes out of nowhere, from my brothers, from friends and relatives, Church mates and even from our good fearing tenants.

What these things mean? God doesn't want me to look for a job? Do I need to be in a fulltime ministry? Does he want me to spend more time with him than making money?

It gets so frustrating. We have low income. I don't like the idea, I get freebies, I prefer to pay for my own way. I like working hard and get paid for it.

John 6:27 NIV
Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. For on him God the Father has placed his seal of approval.”

John 6:33 NIV
For the bread of God is the bread that comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.”

John 6:35 NIV
Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.

John 6:37 NIV
All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away.

John 6:40 NIV
For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.”

John 6:48 NIV
I am the bread of life.

John 6:51 NIV
I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Whoever eats this bread will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world.”

John 6:55-56 NIV
For my flesh is real food and my blood is real drink.  Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me, and I in them.

John 6:63 NIV
The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you—they are full of the Spirit  and life.

John 6:67 NIV
“You do not want to leave too, do you?” Jesus asked the Twelve.

John 6:68-69 NIV
Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We have come to believe and to know that you are the Holy One of God.”

Will I stop attending fellowship? That sometimes cross my mind but because I gave up my right to God and yield to his holy spirit, I couldn't stop. I must obey.

What do I love to do? I enjoy talking to people. I also love, taking photos and edit the photos. Drawing portraits and so on. Who said, I love staying home? Well, if I had my own place that would be nice but I live my mom and my sister. So I think I want to go out and do something away from them.

My sister Yna asked me 2 years or 1 year ago what was my dream or my wish for my birthday. I said, I wanted to travel around the world, taking photos, helping people along the way. She asked, “Like a missionary?" I said, “Sort of, I guess. Maybe. I don't know if it will ever happen. Lack of funds."

So I said to God, “it would be better if I had a job so I won't hesitate to go anywhere."

He replied, “You had a job, you made that excuse not to go to a church events. So, I remove that excuses and yet you had other excuses not to go.

You also had an excuse to leave your former Church, so I gave you a Church that you can't make an excuse not to go. A walking distant from your house because, you said you don't like spending money on transportation fare, every time you needed to attend."

And now, my excuse it because I have no fund. God always provided for my needs if only if I obey him and trust him.

God said, “Here's the deal! Trust me, have faith, walk that faith by obeying me. Go, then I will show you what I can do. I will give you what you need. Stop making excuses!"

I can't help it. I was always the strong one and people relay on me. They also come to me to analyze things, figure out things, I always solve problems, provided for my mom and sister. I also don't  like waiting because I like things on time, I don't like latecomers and delays.

Now whatever, I can't do anything but to trust God. God saying “Decide! Move, walk in faith, trust me. I had I ever failed you?"

2 Corinthians 5:7 
for we walk by faith, not by sight.

" Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?" Matthew 6:26

Luke 12:24
Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds!

There's nothing wrong of saving money and there's nothing wrong living for the moment either.