Snapchat - Vkook

THIRTY-ONE

Tears, drowning Jungkook. Evey drop symbolizes how broken he is. Sometimes the memories sneak out of his eyes and crawls down his cheeks.

When hope gave him too much faith that he almost believed he was important to the latter, he's been fooled by his own lies. Believing maybe he's the world to someone, like what Taehyung is to him; his world. He doesn't hate him, Jungkook's just disappointed that he turned to be someone he never said he would be.

However, he saw it coming, it still hurts.

He admits, he tried forgetting him before the incident, but the harder he forgets. . . the more he thought about Taehyung. It pains him the most when he knows it will never be the same. It will only be memories that Jungkook would regret and despise.

Tears flowing, his head full of thoughts about this certain male, "I'm sorry I wasn't everything you wanted."

He's fucking trying, trying to forget, but he's also waiting for him. The boy who broke him is the only cure to this sadness; sadness caused by Taehyung himself. He loves him, but hates him from giving him pain instead of love. He wished Taehyung will kiss his tears instead of stabbing his heart each time he breathes. "You broke my heart, but I still love you with all the pieces," Jungkook sobs into his pillow.

Jungkook wishes he never met him. Then there would be no need to impress him. No need to love the blond male. No need from loving him. No need for tears and pain. No need for the broken promises. No need, for everything Taehyung have done to make Jungkook feel like obviously nothing.

Maybe the hardest thing he had done is walking away from Taehyung, still loving him. He fell too much which cost him to crash to hard.

"It hurts so fucking much," Jungkook grabbed his chest, sobbing even more.

....

It's been four weeks ever since it happened. He tried getting over him. He sure did cry, more than he could imagine. He did loved the latter, it is also the cost why it's so damn difficult get over him. Every second that passes, his mind screams the holder's name. His head throbs whenever he think of him too much which cost him to nose bleed in multiple occasion.

Jungkook's also having a difficult time focusing on his studies. He once had a test about a week ago, he ended up spacing out instead of finishing the test. It was fucking difficult. Whenever his thoughts wonders, he'll end up sobbing.

His friends are concerned. Mingyu, one of his best friends constantly visits him. Just to cook for him and check up on him while Jin was gone. Yugyeom was also there to entertain him whenever Mingyu's busy with his work or studies. Jungkook was thankful for his friends, they're also the reason why he slowly forgets about this certain boy he used to love.

He slowly, but surely forget about the boy. The boy who broke him. He smiles from time to time, but not like the smile before. It was forced, but he was trying to make is real as possible. He try not to waste a single drop of tear for him and he was successful to do so. But, the memories of Taehyung still wonders in his mind.

He's in the verge of moving on, and he's glad about it. He rarely remembers Taehyung and he was thankful. He needed to move on, loving him won't do any good. He's happy, content to what he has. He smiles more often, it's a true one this time, but not as pure as back then. He laughs too, which is a good sign for his friends. His friends were proud of Jungkook. They're joyful that they can see their friend smiling, again.