Pairing Up The Devil (Unedited)

48. First last love

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  CHAPTER 48 - First last love

"The most basic of all human needs is the need to understand and be understood. The best way to understand people is to listen to them."

And I was going to do the same, I was going to listen to that jerk's story or whatever he has to tell me. You know why, because I want to know why the hell he broke up with me. I want to know why he acted the way he did, I want all my questions to be answered.

I want the truth.

I listened to Aiden as well, then why not give this prick a chance?

It'll be fair for him. I don't want him thinking that I giving some special treatment to Aiden or something. 

So after last night, I came home and told Ryan that we'll talk in the morning becuase I was too tired bu the real reason was that I was too numb to go through one more explanation. I had enough with Aiden's. But I feel bad for him, he went through a lot. He lost his best friend as well, he felt sad as well. He's not mister Perfect anymore.

The things he told me about were very sensitive. I was too scared to ask him anything after that. it was already a fragile topic and I didn't want to break the ice. Let it be the way it is.

I was in my bed when I heard a soft knock on the door.

It was alreay unlocked so I just said,"Come in." and began thinking about last night's incidence.

It's just getting out of my head. I tried a lot to wash it away but it's just not happening. You know that moment when you don't want to think about something but that particular thing gets stuck at your head and you have no choice but think about it? This was the same situation for me.. It was kind of hard to forget about something like that. I mean, it was about life and death. And I be honest, I don't think it was Aiden's fault. It's normal to get angry at your friend if he ditched you to become someone else's friend. It would be hard to see your best friend with someone else. If I would have found that Jess or Blair became someone else's best friend and dumped me, then I would have cutted their throats out. I know, I am a freaking violent kid but hey, they ditched me and I never compromise with my friendship and relationships.

"Jade."

But I know my friends, they won't ever do something like that to me. I trust them with my full heart. But I wonder how Aiden took it, he must be messed up when Richie died. It's really hard to lose someone and if that someone was special, then it hurts even more.

"Cupcake."

But what about Ryan? How did he took it? I don't think it was his fault as well. I mean, it wasn't his fault that everyone got attracted toward him and I bet he's not that bad to steal someone else's loved ones and stay happy with that. He may have broken my heart but I know he's not that bad of a person. He's full of charm, nobody can stay away from his charm and ends but getting attractive to him, just like me but I know he won't do it intentionally.