wolfstar imagines n stuff (rewrite in progress)

part 6

(I honestly needed to update so here.)

Sirius felt the velvety sands with his nimble fingers, letting it slip through, just like he had with Remus. The beach being his place of resort, wanting to clear his mind by looking out at the deep blues and purples of the ocean, and a bus that was almost black coating the sky with splatters of stars everywhere. He for once felt small and as though he was just another number amongst the 6 billion people on the immense planet they called home. He didn't wish to speak to anyone currently, fighting back the tears with all his might and feeling that someone would set him off, and he would do something he didn't know he wanted to. He turned his attention back to the minuscule grains of sand running through his fingers continuously. He had remembered that he and Remus would come to that spot on the beach and merely enjoy the other's company for a while, basking in the glory that is the Earth they were placed upon. He once again felt small at that thought. He desperately wanted to feel needed and wrapped in Remus' arms while hearing the simple words spoken in his voice, "you will be okay. I love you." With that, he could no longer hold back his anger towards everything. He yelled and kicked the sand with his shoe, sending it flying to different parts of the beach. He walked himself to the end of the shore, sat down upon the wet sand and laid back. He left the salty waters lap at his black hair, feeling cold already. Sirius wanted so much to go back to his now ex boyfriend and tell him he's sorry for whatever he did. He didn't mean to, and he wants him back. Needs him back, but he couldn't, and he knew that, despite the truth being so difficult for his 17 year old mind to grasp.