anywhere // : jihan [slow updates]

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Jeonghan's P.O.V

You have to pretend to be my boyfriend.

Somehow, these words made me feel extremely guilty. I had no choice but to agree, and I felt sick about it.

Why would I hurt Soonyoung like that? Wouldn't he get jealous? And what if Jisoo liked me back, would he give up on me? What about Seungcheol and Vernon and Seungkwan- Junhui wouldn't pull me away from them, right?

I rubbed my forehead, sitting at my desk in the room I shared with Seungcheol.  I was trying to focus on my homework, but I really couldn't. I was too worried about the future. I glanced over at the time, noticing it was almost six. I felt my phone vibrating against the desk, causing me to snap out of my thoughts.

I picked it up. "Hello?" I asked with a yawn. I was greeted by a certain Seungcheol's voice. "Jeonghan, hey. Are you at home?" He asked, and I could hear a little bit of music in the background. "Yeah." I turned my head to cough.  "You're still with Jihoon?" The music probably meant that Seungcheol was helping him with a song. "Mm." He said in response.

"Did you ever find what you were looking for?"

"Oh, yeah." I muttered, my voice lowering.

"Good. I was worried."

"Cool." I didn't mean to sound rude, but the more I thought about earlier I got irritated.

There was an awkward pause of silence. "..yeah, anyways. I just called to let you know I can't cook dinner tonight because I'll be here until late. Will you tell Vernon and Seungkwan?"

"Yeah, no problem."

"..are you okay?"

"Yeah."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Is this attitude about-"

"I'm hanging up now." I sighed, and I did before he could say anything else. He gets nosey and I'm so tired already I was afraid I'd snap at him.

I sat still for a few moments before slowly getting up and walking towards the other boys' room.

I lightly knocked, hearing a loud "Come in!" Spoken in English. I'm not fluent but Vernon taught me enough to know what something like that means. I did enter, smiling to the younger boys. "Hey, good evening." I greeted, examining the clean room.

Somehow, seeing these two helped ease my conscience a little bit.

"Hello hyung~" Seungkwan sang, and I reached over to ruffle his hair from where he was laying on his bed.

"Seungcheol can't cook tonight, so I'm ordering out. What do you guys want?" I asked, walking over to the wall after and leaning against it.

"Pizza?" Vernon offered, setting down the weights he had been lifting and pulling out his earbuds. He was panting a little bit, and Seungkwan was looking at Vernon with a pink tint on his cheeks.

I smirked, shaking my head. "Seungkwanni~ what do you think about pizza?" I asked, giving him a slight wink to show that I knew he was staring.

He hid his face behind his hands for a moment after I winked at him, muttering "Aish..suddenly it got hot in here.." under his breath. I could feel myself laughing a little bit.

"Alright then, I'll get pizza." I said, taking Seungkwan's reaction as a yes anyways.

I couldn't wipe my smile away, looking over the two again. As much time as I spend with them, I missed them. Our schedules had been so busy lately that I barely even stopped by their room like this.