dear j,
please.. please, i take back everything i ever said.
i hate this! i hate it, i hate it, i. hate. it!
please, j.. im running out of tears..
i can't feel anything, anymore. though i suppose it makes pretending a hell of a lot easier.
all i really feel is pain.. pain for you, all else is numb.
i hope you smiled today, and meant it. you deserve happiness..
i don't.. i hurt you, i don't deserve anything.
please j, i miss you..
signed,
