dear j,
it was my birthday yesterday.
i would've done anything to spend it with you.
i had opened the fridge today, and wrapped inside was a present with my name written on it with a heart.. a Twinkie tied on top of it.. inside, was a four pack of Monster..
you know me so well <3
i had run into the bathroom, crying.. i spent ten minutes in there..
i just ate that Twinkie, smiling.. im drinking a monster right now, infact.
i saw you, on my way to mums house.. you were walking over to matts, in the way I know you best, in your blue black jacket with the hood on with a baseball cap on underneath, your head ducked and your baggy jeans..
i miss you so fucking much, j.. please, hurry up and come home.. forgive me..
i had a whole week off of school.. I was puking.. i think.. was i really? i don't know, i can't tell anymore.
i sent your a letter.. you read it.
you said you can't wait to be able to see me again.. i know that she was lying to me when she passed it on..
i love you, j, i really do..
signed,
