December 20th, 2016
The last day of fall.
Autumn is 17
The sky was grey, with a cool breeze in the air;
As I make up my mind. It was time to go.
I walk hastily through the airport, attempting to find the right outlet.
A green-eyed young man followed at my heels;
Tears in his eyes.
"Autumn, please. You can't go yet. Stay here for a little longer. Where will you go?"
He pleaded.
I kept walking, making no eye contact, and, inhaling boldly, began,
"Mexico. I'm going to Mexico, of course. For the closure I need, and to make sure this is right. After all, it has to be."
"But what if it isn't, Autumn? What if it's all wrong?"
"Stop being so selfish!"
I yell at him, quickly realizing how I just hurt him. I turn back around to avoid seeing the pain in his eyes.
"You know this finally might be my chance. They could still be out there..."
"I could go with you."
He says quietly, a tear silently running down his face.
I stop and turn around again, facing him, say;
"You know you can't. You can't leave your home. You have plans, you know you do. I have to go alone."
I feel a pang of regret already, though I haven't even left yet.
I hear a voice inside of me, screaming;
No! You don't have to go alone. You don't have to. Let him come with you. Don't go alone. You'll regret it.
You'll regret it. You'll regret it.
"You don't have to leave either. You don't have to leave me."
He speaks more quieter, and his words pierce my heart, and rip it to pieces.
"Again."
I felt my insides turn to hot boiling liquid, and melt inside of me. I feel myself being torn apart again. And then, knowing the mistake I was about to commit,
Turned toward the correct outlet,
And left him behind.
YOU ARE READING
Waiting For Autumn
Novela JuvenilAutumn Green is almost 16, and lives in a worn-out old neighborhood of Chicago, Illinois, after the disappearance of her parents 14 years ago. Seeking an escape from everyday life, Autumn hastily makes the decision to drop out of high school, and...
