I'm afraid

My feelings (Harry POV)

I'm so sorry that I haven't updated for so long but I'm in the final year of school and need to learn more than ever

So I hope you like this chapter.<3

°Debby°

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I have to tell it, the guys and Jo.

Ok not all the boys, only Liam Zayn and Louis.

Oh sorry, I should maybe tell you everything.

I Harry Edward Styles am gay and I am in love with Niall James Horan.

Yea I know that everybody says that I'm a womenizer but I'm doing it only that the others don't see that I'm gay.

I'm not interested in all the girls I slept with.

Everytime I have sex with a girl I'm thinking of Niall.

He is just so cute.

He thinks that he doesn't deserve this all but he is the one that deserves it the most.

His eyes, they have the beautiful colour of the ocean after a storm.

You may ask me what this colour is.

Wonderfull.

Adorable.

Perfect.

I don't even want to start about his smile.

He doesn't like his braces but it makes him hot, no, he makes the braces hot.

He always blushes when someone compliments him or how he could eat so much.

I made a sentence about it: Niall only eats so much because he has a little angel in his stomach and that's why he also sings like one.

For me it's the truth.

When Niall is nervous he chews his nails and it looks so cute.

And when he is happy his eyes twinkel.

Ok enought about him.

We are sitting all at the table and just finished dinner, everyone beside Niall finished.

He just eats and eats and I just question about how hungry the little angel is.

"Harry is everything ok?" Jo wispers in my ear.

I just looked at her.

"Of course everything is ok" I said nervously.

"Do you want to talk about it? Because you look at Niall like you would attack him any second"

"It really is nothing" I tried to bring her down.

"There is something" she said and took my arm that I would stand up

"Harry and I are going to my room to talk in private. If any of you tries to listen I will hurt you" she said serious and ran upstairs.

I slowly went after her.

I was really nervous about what she is going to think when I tell her that I'm gay.

And what am I going to do when she hates me???