Don't go near them, please don't do anything
We were together once, but something has broken the ring
They were so close to, like no one would know
My mind won't allow me to just let go
No one can see from my perspective, no one ever will
No matter how similar our past, we have different dreams to fulfill
It will always be this way, nothing will ever change
Like how everything's drifting out of range
I should have shut up. Should have kept my mouth closed
That's what I should have done. I'm always supposed
To be quiet, no one should hear, no one should care
I'm dissolving under someone's glare
Doesn't matter! Hide your pain with a smile
Hide those scars that won't last for just a while
That mask won't help me. I go unprotected
I have wandered from some of the few friends I've selected
Accept it! They don't like you as much anymore!
They've gone away, left through the front door
Don't go through the door, the world isn't a kind place
Anyways, it's not like I could keep up the pace
We are small. We are big. We aren't the middle
But from what we see, we are. A mysterious riddle
I can't tell if I'm sick in the head
Because everyone's joking about wanting to be dead
What if I actually want to be dead? What then?
When do I learn if I'm ok? When?
I used to be quiet, and sure I still got hurt
But with a poisoned dinner came a blissful dessert
The greatness of knowing that nothing they said mattered
But it's when a friend says it that you know your heart has shattered
I try to put what I feel into my work
But not only does it never feel right, there's this one little jerk
"You didn't do it right. Go back, erase it all"
One day that will be my downfall
But isn't that what I wanted? To shut up real nice?
C'mon, I've said that more than twice
I surround myself with support, have people all around
But then something breaks, and suddenly, I've drowned
Someone can only hold so much weight, that's alright
"I'm too fragile to start another fight"
This will not be the last time I post
But it might be the time when I hurt the most
