[Finished] Picture, Picture (Tagalog)

Special Chapter

The chapter of my second year life has ended, and frankly, parang wala talaga akong natatandaan sa other half of the school year. I don’t know kung bakit, pero my memories are very hazy when I try recalling. I have only remembered little on what happened on my life. I recall a woman in my head, but it’s too blurry to think about. Siguro si ate Sharlene iyon. Na-aalala ko rin na lagi akong pumupunta sa likod ng campus ngunit kahit ako, di ko masasabi kung bakit. Sabi naman ni teacher Zenny na may third-eye daw ako, na nakakakita daw ako ng multo, ngunit ako, wala akong natandaan na may nakita akong multo o may ikinwento ako na may nakita na akong multo. In fact, hindi nga ako naniniwala sa mga multo ehh… sa mga halimaw siguro pwede, pero sa mga multo? Para sa akin, ang mga multo-multo na iyan is just a product of human imagination, the imagery that fear has instilled in our brain just for the sake of scaring us more. Siguro nga may na-ikwento ako kay mam Zenny kung bakit niya iyon nasabi pero kung ano man ang kuwentong iyon, yun ang hindi ko na natatandaan. Also, nung nilinis ko ang aking kwarto, meron akong nakitang mga origami. Origami flowers, origami swan at isang sulat. Hindi ko alam kung kalian ko iyon nakuha or kung sino ba ang gumawa nun, dahil I don’t remember receiving one.  O di kaya may stalker na ako, wag naman sana. Nung binasa ko ito ang nakasulat:

          Dear Ka-el,

        When you read this, it probably means that I am no longer here for you, no longer beside you. With all the years I have spent in loneliness, and hopelessness, you came along and pulled me away from that fright. The darkness that engulfs when you were not along is something that I cannot fight. When you came along and found me, your camera flash made see the light, and now I thank you for all the things that you done for me every day and night, for without I never would’ve knew what love would like. Thank you for the laughter and the memories, thank you for the love and care you gave to me. You taught me what is love, and you gave it all to me. You protected me, gave me everything you have. But now you must find someone who could love you the way you do. I couldn’t give the love that was right for you. But always know that my love for you is forever. The memory of you lives on in my heart.

                                                                                                                Love, 

                                                                                                              xxxxxxxx

An intriguingly poetic and inspiring letter from someone I might not even know and will never ever know. I mean, bakit di niya nilagay ang kanyang pangalan? Makes me curious of whom she might really be. Or maybe that’s the plan. To make me curious para hanapin ko siya. Kung yun man ang plano ng girl na nagbigay nito sa akin, well, she succeeded, she got my attention. Unfortunately though, lumipat na ako ng school, yun kasi ang gusto nina mama at papa eh. Kasi, matapos na mabugbug ako, natatakot na daw sila na balikan pa uli ako ng mga nambugbug sa akin, kaya for security reasons, inilipat nila ako ng school.  Pero sa totoo lang, gusto lang naman talaga nilang lumipat dahil mas malapit ang aming bagong tirahan sa kanilang workplace, ginawa pa akong palusot.

Yun nga, lumipat kami sa isang bagong bahay, at ako naman ay lumipat sa isang bagong school, an today, is the official start of the first day of classes.

Ang ganda ng bagong school ko! Mas maganda pa ata ito sa dati kong pinapasukan at ang laki pa! The hallway was big, the whole campus was big, at every corner may garbage can for convenience sake in only just one building, not to mention may isa-isa pa kaming mga locker.  The place was very lively, and there all sorts of students out there. Lahat sila nagugrupo-grupo, magbabarkada nagtatawanan, nagkakatuwaan.

Ito talaga ang hirap kapag isa kang transferee, wala ka kang kakilala sa kanila. Nahihiya naman akong magtanong sa kung sino lang, kaya I searched for my room without any help. As I walk by the hallway intersection, may nakita akong matanda sa isang sulok ng aking mata.