You told me that you'd always be there for me. You told me that we're going to run away together. You told me that until the very end it was 'You and I'.
"Ayoko na dito. Gusto ko nang lumayo. Pumunta ng ibang bansa. Kahit saan! Basta kasama kita." You looked at me with all seriousness and sincerity. I did not see any shadow of doubt in your eyes.
"Oo naman. Sasamahan kita kahit saan ka man pumunta. Basta't walang iwanan, walang bibitaw." I smiled and you smiled back. We shared that silent moment and savored it.
"Just you and I." You added. I nodded in silence, blissful and grateful to have known you and to have shared this moment with you.
But weeks passed and everything became too busy for us; you started refusing our meetups and you cancelled our planned dates. You even forgot about our 3rd anniversary.
I was supposed to surprise you then - with all the balloons and pictures and your favorite cake. Everything just passed us by in a flash and I was not prepared for the onslaught.
You never saw me anymore. You never even bothered to text. You never even tried to call to check on me. It was like a wall had suddenly been put up between us; no connection, no communication - nothing.
All that's left are memories that I hold on to everyday and I reminisce all of those things until my chest could no longer take the pain. And I always go back to that night you told me you wanted to run away.
I kept wondering what went wrong or if there was any clue behind those words of yours that led us to where we are right now. Because you never explained, you never apologized and you don't even know how much you have hurt me.
I don't even know where things went haywire or how things changed so quickly between us and how you managed to pull it together when I was breaking apart.
I saw you again today. I remembered and saved the date.
02-13-20
You were laughing happily with another guy - holding hands under the table, feeding him a forkful of your own food and looking at him with all that sparkle in your eyes. You were with your manager too as well as some crew members that I recognized from your new online show. You were having lunch at this posh restaurant we used to eat at.
You looked my way and our eyes met. I stopped short on my tracks and gave you a sad smile. I could see the panic in your eyes but I just nodded at you, as a sign of assurance that I'll be okay.
At least it was good to know that you were doing okay, that you were happy and that you were managing. I felt like I was going to burst out sobbing but I pulled myself together and slowly walked away. It had been months then.
I thought to myself...
God made another one of me who will love you better than I ever will.
As my thoughts filled me, I got lost in the moment as my feet kept walking. I bumped into someone and she managed to knock me down.
"I'm so sorry!" She helped me up and I smiled. "It's fine. I'm sorry as well. I wasn't looking." She gave me a sweet smile then.
"Mika, by the way." She offered her hand and I shook it. I felt tiny sparks coursing through my veins. I didn't know that a world of possibilities would open up after that meeting.
A few years later...
"Babe!" I waved my hand at the sight of my one and only.
She literally left her luggage as she saw me halfway and she ran to me to hug me tightly. We pulled through after years of being apart because she had to work abroad.
We celebrated that night with a candle-lit dinner and a few hours of lying under the stars on the rooftop of the condominium that we stay in.
"You know what, Babe.." I broke the silence between us and Mika looked at me straight in the eyes.
"I love you." I smiled and she smiled back, her eyes glistening. We shared a deep and passionate kiss under the stars which told me how much she loved me too.
I knew then as I remembered you, Dennise...
God made another one of you as well, who loves me better than you ever will.
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Inspired by Ed Sheeran's song entitled U.N.I 😊
For #TeamBabe! 💙💚
