Lifesaver

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PIPER'S POV

danisnotonfire chat

walkinthemoonlight: Hi! How was your day?

walkinthemoonlight: Yesterday I fall asleep to you playing ingenue in the piano, I haven't sleep in days, so thank you for your talent.

walkinthemoonlight: Don't you think the starting melody of 7 years by Lukas Graham its quite similar yo Ingenue?

Of course there was no answer. I don't blame him though, why would he ever reply to me? He sure has billions of messages in his tumblr inbox, probably more good looking or interesting girls.

Its been months of me ranting about my day to Dan Howell, an "internet cult leader" as he says in his tumblr info. I dont know why i do it, it just make me feel safe telling someone who doesnt know me my problems. Plus, i know that he will never read it, so im good for now. There's something about Dan Howell that makes me want to tell him everything.

I have to clarify, im in love with this guy. Seriously, since 2009 i have this big crush on him, its not even funny anymore. At first was crazy infatuation, i couldnt live without his videos and i was constantly aswering him every tweet, reblog or facebook post i could find. I was insane. Growing up my love for him was still there, but I was more mature and i just saw him as an incredible person who helps people via youtube. Yet, i found him the most beautiful boy i have ever seen. I found his values and his advice helpful and inspiring, and his eyes...omg dont let me start talking about his eyes. I actually never seen them in real life, but by his videos I can definetly say, im in love with those eyes.

walkinthemoonlight: i saw your video today, really funny! Its great that you achieve your dream of playing the piano anyway

walkinthemoonlight: i wish i have the confidence to actually fulfill one of my goals in life

walkinthemoonlight: i draw you, its your face against a galaxy of blue, violet and black.

walkinthemoonlight: i think you are going to like it

walkinthemoonlight: let me know if you want me to send it to you

walkinthemoonlight: how are you doing lately?

walkinthemoonlight: ive been having some existencial crisis, you know

walkinthemoonlight: and panic attacks

walkinthemoonlight: your music actually helps me calm down a bit

walkinthemoonlight: maybe you can upload more piano videos? 

No answer. As always. I decided to go to sleep, listening, once more, Ingenue by Dan Howell.