Lifesaver

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PIPER'S POV

What the hell did i just say?! Did i call him 'hot'? Omg im so lame i hate myself right now. I sounded as a combination of an old lady and a hormonal girl. I really dont know how to keep talking right now, he is looking at me with a big side smile and im melting inside but i cant make a bigger fool of myself, so i acted as it was perfectly normal to call a guy that you just met hot.

"Wow you are really blushing arent you?" I tried to sound sassy, i dont think it worked

"No im not. You are" He said in a kinda childish voice

"Really mature Dan"i rolled my eyes an he laugh

"So, tell me something i dont know about you. You know, something you didnt tell me in all this years"

I panicked, the things i didnt tell him were things that were too dark to tell anyone, even him. Like how i tortured myself everytime i fail an exam, how i passes out several times for crying too much, how i cant trust anyone because of everything that happened to me. I wasnt ready to tell him all that. I wasnt ready to tell him how i cant stand myself, and i really dont undertand how he can. Dan, so peaceful, so beautiful, so full of life since he met Phil, he was interested in my dark and too emotional aura and personality. I cant bring him down again, i cant let him have existencial crisis like before, i cant let him drown because of me. I cant tell him.

"Im an open book you see, ive told you everything unfortunately. Why dont you tell me about you?"

"Me? Well my life has been pretty exposed since i started uploading videos. The phandom knows everything about me"

"Well ive told you im not that kind of fan"

"Yeah...well something that not everyone knows about me is that i like to draw"

"Wait what?"

"I know, its a bit strange coming from me..."

"But you always said that you were bad at drawing"

"I never said i didnt enjoy it though. Whenever im feeling down or that my bad demons are coming for me in my head, i start drawing, and my mind disperse, and i start thinking in something else, its-"

"A lifesaver. I know. Its mine too."

"It is?"

"Im an art student..."

"yeah i know but making it your career, i dont know, i just think that if you like drawing so much, doing a career in that it would make you hate it eventually, because you are not going to relate drawing with lifesaver, but with stress and work"

"Believe me, i thought of that, but what else was i suppose to study? At least this way, maybe, i can help others with what i draw"

"Meaning?"

"I draw whats in my heart, what im feeling, and when i find a solution to my problem i draw it too, like the 'before and after' thing. I usually do that with other people too, so maybe i can help someone overcome their demons in that way"

"Yeah, i can see that working...So...have you...i mean...um, did you ever-"

"Draw you? You are my most recent one"

"Really? What did you paint?"

"Its a little embarrasing to tell you..." I blush, it was indeed embarass. I didnt want to sound like a fangirl who is constantly drawing her idol, but i have drawn Dan plenty of times. He changed so much since the beggining, for me it was a demonstration about someone that thought he was completly lost and that all of a sudden he found someone who proves him wrong. Phil save him in so many ways, and i can see the evolution of Dan throughout the years in my head, and i almost cry in front of him. 

"Piper? Are you okay?"He mentioning my name made me come back to reality, i smiled at him.

"Yeah sorry, i just black out for a moment there"

"I could see that...So what did you draw? About me i mean"

"Um... okay i'll tell you. In the 'before' side i draw you sitting on the corner of your room, with all your black things like your bed and your decorations, and it was dark and the only light were the fairy lights above your bed, but you are not looking at them, you are looking down and crying...Sorry thats not so good"

"No please, thats...too accurate i must say...whats in the 'after'side?"

I hesitate. Was i really saying it? I never thought of telling Dan how i felt about his life and Phil and everything that he accomplished. I never thought of meeting him, so i thought i was keeping my art to myself. But he wants to know, and i want him to realize everything that he has.

"Well... i draw you in Phil's room...please dont freak out!"

"Freak out? Nono, im fine, but why on Phil's room?"

"Phil changed you a lot. Phil is the reason you are dressed in a blue sweater right now. He is the reason you started your new life, the life you have now, with 2 books, living with your best friend, just came back from tour, and 2 movies, a stagee performance, a song, voicing in 2 disney related things, being the lifesaver of so many people around the world who just needed someone to relate with them. Everything you are, and everything you have now its because you cross paths with that beautiful human being you call roommate. So thats why i draw you in Phil's room, where everything is color and smiles and Phil. You are sitting in his bed, with a big smile in front of a camera doing a collab with him, and you are finally happy."

He smiled at me with the most pure smile i have ever seen, like i was telling him something that he didnt realize. We stayed in silence for a moment, staring at each other with a smile in our faces.

"And you said you didnt ship me and Phil...yeah right"

"I dont ship you two, i didnt say you were a couple in what i draw. Phil is more of an angel to you, its your lifesaver, your best friend"

"Well, thank you. Everything you say to me its so pure and nice and kind to me. You fill me with beautiful words that its hard for me to believe anything of that. But im glad someone gets my relationship with him. Yes, i love him, but not romantically, he is my best friend, and without him i have no idea where would i be today."

"I think there are loads of people out there who know that. You just focus in what people say about Phan as a romantic couple. Phan is more than that, its like a family that sorrounds you, everyone wants the best for you two."

I gave a glance to my phone and look at the hour. 19:00 pm. We have been talking for hours!

"Oh my god Dan, look at the time! I think we should call it a wrap..."

"Why?"

"Because the Starbucks's employees are looking at us in an annoyed way, maybe we should go"

"I know exactly where to take you next"

"Oh. so you are planning to continue with this date?"

"I am planning to stay with you as long as you can bare me"

"Well then, Mr. Howell, where are we going now?" He took my hand and smiled

"We are going to my apartment"