Ciel's POV...
I laid on my bed, not moving a single muscle.
It was the middle of the night and instead of sleeping I stared blankly at the ceiling.
I began to get flashbacks from every event that happened today.
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he arguing between Alois and Elizabeth, the love making Alois and I had done, and the heated argument Alois and I had.
Everything that happened today brought disappointment to me.
I had no intention to hurt Alois.
Nor, did I purposely meant for us to argue.
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ords couldn't explain how sorry I was.
The thing I don't understand is, why do I feel so bad if I was actually hurting him this whole entire time by lying every time I would say, "I love you," to him, and him not even knowing?
I had said before I don't show pity to anyone.
But, it's different with him.
I don't know how, but it is.
I think maybe it might be because I might have a little amount of love for him.
But, I don't think it's because of the love making anymore.
I think...
"I think I love Alois..."
My eyes widened in shock realizing the words that escaped from my mouth.
How and why would I say such a thing?
Do I love him?
All this time we've been having our affair I felt no feelings towards him, at least until now.
Alois has been the first to make me feel something other than misery.
I don't know how that was possible.
Everything that has happened in the past made me think I could never be happy again, or smile a genuine smile.
Could he be the one who can change that?
Or did he and I've just not known?
Sex was all I wanted from him.
But, now that's not what I want from him.
I don't know exactly what I want now, but, I know it's not that.
I'm going to try my best to make it up to Alois.
I just need to know how without Sebastian or Claude knowing.
I began feeling tired.
I didn't want to fall asleep, but, maybe if I do I won't feel that much stressed.
I turned to my side and shut my eyes closed, hoping tomorrow will be alright.
Okay so..... I know I haven't updated in a VERY long time... I also apologize for the short chapter. But, I'm going to begin to write more often or write like I used to. And yeah....peace✌❤
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