Childhood | Dan x Reader

1 | Voice

- June 2017 -

Your POV

I sat on my bed in the hotel room looking through my laptop subscriptions, a lot of people had uploaded.
It wasn't too surprising as it was VidCon and people had to post their pre-recorded videos, as I had done last week.

Yes I'm a youtuber, I've got about 12 million subscribers and I'm attending VidCon this year.

Since I started YouTube it had really helped with my anxiety and depression, I've gotten more confident over the last five years.
Before flying over to the US for VidCon I was looking through pictures of my childhood, still remembering I had feelings for my bestest childhood friend who left when I was twelve, ten years ago.

I had no idea where he was now, I hope he was alright as we forgot to give eachother our numbers.

When he left I fell into depression, he was my only friend and from that day on I was bullied everyday, the only thing that comforted me then was my brother and music, my brother was called Jack.
Jack was always there for me, as our parents were always out at work.. we were quite poor back then.

Jack has a job as a photoshop artist or whatever, I honestly don't know much about it  but I do know he is doing well and he's made a lot from it.

I had also made a video those few days ago, as my followers asked for a storytime about relationships even though I don't usually do that sort of thing, I made one about Dan, obviously not saying his name in the video. I explained that it had been annoying me recently about the feelings I still felt for Dan, only if I could find him again.

Suddenly I was struck out of my thoughts by my phone vibrating, a text from Felix, who I did a collab with on his channel a few years ago, we had been good friends since.

Felix: 'Heyyyy, what ya doing?'

'Stalking your channellll..'

Felix: 'Oh my gosh please don't.'

'Tough, anyway.. what are YOU doing?'

Felix: 'Wanting to know if you can hang out, we haven't hung out in a while.'

'Yeah sure, where?'

Felix: 'At mine or your hotel room?'

We carried on texting making the odd jokes until he finally confirmed he was coming, so I decided to make myself look half presentable.

I put on a bit of makeup so I didn't look like a troll and then returned to what I was doing, not having to wait long till a knock pounded onto the front door.

...

I rushed up to the front door and opened it, to see a happy Felix standing there with a smile stuck on his face.

"Heyy!" He exclaimed as he gave each other a quick hug and smiled.

"It's nice to see you again Felix, it's been over a year!" I chuckled letting him in and shutting the door.

"Wow yeah, it has.. anyways, how've you been? And ooh! I saw that video talking about you having feelings for this 'Marcus.'!" Felix asked cheekily, with that cheeky smile of his he still had.

"Marcus was a stage name, and yes I've been good." I smiled sarcastically, shrugging as we walked over to the sofa and took a seat.

"What is his name?" Felix asked a little calmer as we sat down onto the sofa, facing eachother.

"D-Daniel.." I said embaressed, feeling a blush appear on my face, "He could be a completley different person now but, I still like him for some reason.."

"Awh (Y/N), try looking him up or something." Felix awed, putting his hand onto me shoulder.

"Ugh not now.." I groaned, looking around for something else to talk about.

...

We hung out and did some dares for a video, it was all fun until Felix did the death question,

"Melissa dares you to sing and rap Heavydirtysoul!" Felix exclaims, placing his phone down next to him and looking at me.

Felix obviously realised I was kind of pissed and nervous, everyone said they think I have a good voice but when I was little my parents always said I suck so that's what I believed.

"O-Okay, I have been told by people I trust the most I don't have a good voice since I was little, as you guys know I haven't really had a good childhood so you can guess why. But I love you guys so I'll give it a try no matter how much I'm about to hate myself." I rambled on and then took in a deep breath.

"There's infestination in my minds imagination, I hope they choke on smoke cause I'm smoking them out the basement, this is not rap, this is not hip-hop, just another attempt to make the voices stop..." I carried on looking straight into the chorus, Felix started doing a small dance until it ended.

"Wow, you've a really good voice." He smiled genuinely.

"Shut up." I chuckled, looking away and back to the camera.

"Seriously, guys comment and prove my facts right for once!" Felix exclaimed, yelling at the camera.

...

After I uploaded the video everyone did say it was really good, after Felix left I listened to me singing a couple of times and it was actually really good. People had started yelling at me in the comments and on twitter and instagram to do a cover of multiple songs and it actually wasn't a bad idea.

I used to play the ukuele which I brought for some reason, I decided to get up and set up my vlogging camera, and decided to do a cover of the judge.

That's what I did until 11pm, then I went to bed, as I had an early start for the first day of VidCon.
I couldn't wait to meet all of my fans!