Childhood | Dan x Reader

4 | It's Him

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"A question for (Y/N)! Who was your first childhood love?"

I felt my stomach instantly turn as I let my facial expression drop.

"W-Well.. I haven't had the best childhood ever.. I grew up with anxiety for most of it.." I said quietly, taking a moment to stop myself from crying.

I looked over to Caspar who gave a reassuring nod.
"I-I've discussed this on my channel before. So basically, I grew up with this boy, let's name him Marcus as I did in the video. We were best friends right until the day came when I was twelve and he was fifteen. It broke my heart when he said he had to leave, and being me I was too distraught to remember to ask for his phone number or anything.. because technology wasn't the biggest thing around back then.. I still think I have feelings for him now and I haven't had a serious relationship before and I think it's because of this. They could be here right now.. w-watching this, they know who they are.. but they probably don't know me now.." I explained, painfully letting out a few tears, "I'm sorry for crying, it's just hard for me.."

I was pulled into a small hug from Caspar.

"It's alright (Y/N), it was very brave for you to share that with us, you have all of our support.
And Dan may I ask why you look so in shock?"

I turned to face Dan who did look completely utterly shocked, he was staring out at the audience.
"I.. Uhm sorry.. I just have had a similar experience.. it's nothing.." He said shaking it off.

"Oh okay, that's good!
Right onto the next dare!"

I soon got a dare to play house of gold on the ukulele which I happily did, obviously borrowing a ukulele as I didn't have mine with me.

Everyone was going crazy.

"Oh my gosh (Y/N), somebody here tweeted that clip of you singing at Tyler Joseph and he's seen it, he said it's amazing to see someone just as famous and amazing cover his song, he says you have an amazing voice!" The speaker congratulated.

"Wow, someone tell Tyler he's an angel, because he seriously is, that Jenna is lucky!" I joked, making everyone scream once again.

"Alright! And the last question of tonight! Isobel asks, is it me or does Phil and (Y/N) have the same eye colour?"

I stood up as so did Phil and walked up to him and we stared looked at each others eyes.
"Wait face me." Dan demanded standing up and we turned to him as he examined our eyes.

"Wow you actually do, you have some beautiful colours in there." Dan smirked, making all the Phan shippers go crazy.

I laughed and returned to my seat.

...

- After the stage show -

We went backstage, I talked to Phil on the way out, mainly about the coincidence that we've got the same eye colour.
I soon noticed Dan on a table in the corner.

"Hey Phil, I've basically stolen you from Dan, why not go and join him?" I asked, he nodded and we walked over.

"Hi Dan!" I exclaimed walking over, he didn't realise I was coming until Phil and I sat either side of him.
"O- Uhm.. H-Hi.." Dan said surprisingly, then leaning onto the table with his heads in his hands.

"Anything wrong?" I asked, looking over to Phil who just shrugged.

"I.. just Uhm.. am really shocked.." Dan exhaled heavily.

"We've been to VidCon loads of times Dan.. what's the issue?" Phil asked concerned, leaning down to see his face.

"I-It's not VidCon.. alright one second." He said leaning back to breath.

"So (Y/N).." He said turning to me and giving me a faint smile, I did recognise this smile, this face, this person.. "So you know you talked about your childhood love or whatever earlier on stage?"

I blushed and looked down, "Yes.."

I knew this person.. just where is that name at?

"Well I think-" He began, I quickly interrupted.

"Wait, are you Dan Howell?" I asked in disbelief, that was the name I was looking for.

He nodded excitedly, "A-Are you (Y/N) (L/N), the cute twelve year old who was my best friend?" Dan looked so happy.

"Oh my gosh, I- I am so embarrassed.." I blushed a lot.

"I feel the same way, (childhood nickname)."

"Don't every say that again Howell." I smirked as we dived into a hug.

"I thought I was never going to see you again.." I whispered into his ear.

"I was worried about you.. and now I know what I put you through.. I'm so sorry.." He apologised frantically.

"Don't be.. I'm a stronger person now, thanks to you Daniel." I whispered with a small giggle.

"I-I l-love you.." Dan stuttered nervously.

"I love you too.." I replied, butterflies were going crazy in my stomach.

I suddenly felt a peck on my cheek which made me blush madly, this was Dan Howell.

He is alive, doing well and here with me ten years on.