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12.

12.

Mae's POV

I'm now sitting in detention for the first time in my life, i guess me throwing books at someone is probable cause to give someone detention, i regret using good literature as a weapon but i was just so mad, a fire inside me ignited that I've never felt before, and i realized why, i didn't take a pill this morning. I stayed up the previous night crying that when i finally got to sleep i woke up at 7:30 so i was in such a rush to go to school i forgot to pop one, i was thinking about earliers events and realized that in my life it's either me or jeremy that'll fit and he is the one thats fitting better than i am, zander wont stop talking about how cool he is, and carly is just nuts over him, my sister even thinks he is cute, i just wish they all cared and loved me the way they love jeremy, or maybe i should just embrace and let jeremy in, then maybe i can get my life back.

These thoughts are killing my head, detention is already my least favorite thing because it gives me too much time to think.

I had to cancel my baby sitting today so i could stay after school for this crap.

Finally the bell rang and it was time for me to drive home, i walk out of the room and i make my way to my locker, i finally make it and i grab my books, I've got a lot of studying to do tonight, rachel walks by and all the memories i have with her rushes in my mind, i just have to swallow the thoughts and just remember she is a shallow high school girl now.

I finally make it to my car and turn on the radio, the song don't let me down is roaring through the speakers and i make my way home, turning 2 streets and then driving about 6 miles i find myself right in front of my new home, it still doesn't seem real that i live here, i think mom would've loved to live here, she always wanted us to get a bigger house but dad said we didn't need it, he is like me, we are both practical. But mom always wanted more, her and stacy have both always been that way. I don't like change, it has been something I've never liked. I like things the way they were, i don't dislike lindy, and her children, but I'd much rather have things back to the way they were.

I park my car in the driveway, and Blake's car is here, and Jeremy's porsche was here, great. I can't escape this guy, i should just swallow my pride and let him in, i mean he did tell me he cares about me.

I walk into the house and i hear them talking from the dining room, so i walked in there and made eye contact with them and then i said "Jeremy can i talk to you for a second"

He then got up from the table with all his homework sprawled across the table, he made his way over to me and we are both standing in the hallway just standing close to each other, his golden eyes looked so gorgeous, he has an eye color ive never even seen before, he is really good looking.

"What's up mae?" he says to me

I then lock in his eyes and say "look, i know I've been rude to you, and its just i Don't like change and i don't let a lot of people in and i just want to say I'm sorry"

Then a gorgeous smile appeared upon his lips and then he said "that means a lot that you apologized to me, and i understand changing houses and stuff is a big adjustment for you, I'd really like to take you out sometime"

"I still have a boyfriend, but i wouldn't be above hanging out"

He then grabs me and presses me in for a hug, he smelt like axe body spray, i love the smell of dude. The hug felt nice but i felt like if i didn't pull away he wouldve just kept on holding me forever