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16.

Maes POV

i can't believe that jeremy was thinking of me while making out with Stacey? That is completely nuts to me. I never thought any guy would ever chose me over her, well besides Zander...... Jeremy cash can tell me all he wants how much he wants me but i don't believe it, i don't think his intentions are pure, but a little part of me wishes they were.

      I just have to keep pushing these thoughts into the back of my mind. I don't want to embarrass or hurt myself,  i know my place in this world no matter how sad and shitty it may be.

This weekend is the winter formal, and i couldn't be more nervous, i am actually going to a school dance, i have a hair appointment, which i am very nervous about, i don't usually do much with my hair, either up or down, no highlights, no lowlights, not even a french braid.

I then look down at my phone and get a message from carly

Carly: do you even know who your step brother is going to the dance with?
Mae : if you say zander im screaming
Carly: what??? No??? He is going with Bryan Deluca
Mae : wait like teen model Bryan Deluca?? Good he can finally leave my man alone.
Carly ; well yeah but it is a complete shocker
Mae : that means that me and him can go together, i hope jeremy understands.....
Carly ; you aren't seriously considering going to the school dance without Jeremy? That would be so shitty of you mae.
Mae : well now i can go with zander so i just might tell Jeremy to get another date.
Carly: dude, just fuck zander, you cant possibly do that to jeremy.

I just didnt respond, how dare she give me this knowledge and not expect me to not take my boyfriend to the dance, it could be our first dance together that isnt a middle school one. I can just picture him, all dressed up and him looking at me, finally realizing that i am everything he could want and need.
I dont know why but i am feeling very happy knowing that i can be with zander at this dance, happier than i felt going with jeremy.

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MAEs POV

it's the next morning and I'm just trying to get into my routine, i wake up. Stretch, run to my bathroom to wash my face and then i went to my bedside table for the final ingredient to start my day, i felt an absolute panic when i didn't see that little orange bottle in my dresser.

Where the fuck could it have gone?

I start searching like a maniac around my room, going through my purse, emptying my pockets, i even ran down the stairs in my PJs to go outside to search my car and i found nothing.

I then enter the house, and i see my dad as soon as i open the door, he was looking at me as if i was a crazy person, but my whole body was covered in a cold sweat.
He then grabbed my shoulders and looked into my eyes and said
"Mae, are you alright?"

I then took a step back and said quietly so no one else could hear "no i lost my pills" and then i sniffled a bit
He then grabbed me in a hug and said
"Oh mae honey, don't freak out. Its going to be okay."
"No it wont dad, you obviously dont remember what im like off of them."
"Just get ready for school honey." he says
"I'm not going to school, i can't go to school" i say
"Youre going to school......just go upstairs and change real quick and ill call the pharmacy and bring you the refill on your lunch break"
"But dad, thats 5 hours of me not on medicine, do you know what could happen in 5 hours?" i say
"Honey, you will be JUST fine, now hurry up, you don't want to be late."

I then went up the stairs and could hardly walk i was so freaked out. Where could my pills have gone? Who couldve stole my pills? My mind was racing at a million miles a minute and i couldn't focus.