Hold me close

Chapter Twelve

CHAPTER TWELVE:
Before it's too late....

" I wonder where he is right now...... "

" ummmm..wait maybe he's starving!! Oh my don't tell me his been crying until now?!!" 

"Or maybe he's-"

"SHUT UP kurapika!!" I yelled, I can't keep my anger inside anymore as he continuously blabber about what  maybe Gon's condition right now. I glare daggers at the one annoying blonde inside my room comfortably sitting on my bed for the tenth time this day, no other than kurapika himself. "Stop pestering me! Get out!!" I yelled as I glared at her. "Eh? Pestering you? Is it effective?" She said smiling innocently at me. "God!! Kurapika stop that! What do you want?" I asked with a sigh she stand up with a frown on his face pointing a accusation finger at me. "You spy freak!! What do I want you asked? I want to find Gon whatelse! It's your fault he's missing!" He said now anger visible on his feature.

"It's no used kurapika. See? He's so busy in his so called case, mission or whatever is that to maybe have even a little bit of worry to Gon. " another pest said outloud. God! They didn't stop bothering me. But to be honest I- I think it's really my fault. It's been four days since then and Gon is nowhere to be found. It's been four days since then... Four days without him... Four days without a clingy idiot hiding behind my back. Wait-- do I miss him? No! Emotions are just a nuisance right?. So why.

"Maybe because it's not. Killua" I gasp as I hear kurapika spoke. "Huh? What do you-" I asked but suddenly cut off by him. "Emotions are not a nuisance. Emotions is part of us. All of us can convey different emotions. We smile, frown,and shock. We can feel happiness, sadness, pain, anger, jealousy and above all that LOVE. That's what you feel for him right?" My eyes widen in shock as my mouth left agape like a fish. And I felt a crimson hot sensation on my cheeks. Kurapika eyes me smiling "you love him do you?" He said again.

"Wha-what are you-!!"

"You said it outloud" he said and I felt embarrassed. I been too caught up in my thoughts that I forgot they're here. "Kurapika?" I look at the ground unknown of what to do. Since Gon came into my life different emotions lingers inside of me that I can't even explain. "Ummm" he hum as an answer telling me his listening. "My brother always telling me that emotions are just a nuisance. That it's just every normal people's weakness. People who loves other always ended up being hurt. We're not normal, we were born to be a spy. I born to be the next heir and to be- to be perfect." I said gazing at the floor. "Your an idiot Killua Zoldyck." I look up at him shock he smile weakly at me and Leorio just keep silent. "Nobody born in this world to be perfect. Nobody's perfect, everyone of us can make mistake sometimes that's we're we learn. And are you okay in the scenario that your family are the one dictating your future?" He said and he turn his back at me and leave the room with Leorio.

"Love? Emotions? What are they...." I silently muttered. I wonder if he's okay. Then suddenly the image of him pop out on my mind. "Shit!!" I curse lying on my bed. I can't get any decent sleep this past few days in the hell I don't know why. Is it because of him? I'm worried? No maybe just because of the pressure of my new mission, right?. "Shitttttt!! The hell your a fucking Zoldyck!" I yelled feeling annoyed on everything I was thinking.

I blink my eyes few times. Everything is white, I'm in a place where you can't see anything but white. 'Killua? Killua?' I look around as I hear someone calling my name. In front of me Is a young little white haired kid. His back facing me. 'No, sorry please I'm sorry....' The white haired boy said and he began to cry. I look forward to see who he talking to. Few meters away from us is a kid with a raven hair his back on us. 'Killua? Killua?' Then the voice called out again. It's a melancholic melody calling out for me and seems coming from the raven kid. 'You promised you'll stay yet you left, you promise to protect me, but you turn coward, you promise! You promise everything but yet... But yet....' The raven kid said outloud I was about to reply but the white haired kid cut me off. 'No... I didn't meant it... Sorry...' Why? Why does this kid answering? The kid is talking to me right? 'Killua, it hurts...I'm sad. I'm sad because you turn out to be the one you promise you'd  never be.' The raven kid said the pain and sadness lingering in his voice. I felt a struck of guilt building inside me and again the white haired boy behind me cry. ' liar.... Both of you!!' My eyes widen in shock as he said those words. Both of us? Who me and this white haired kid.? Why? I stand can't utter even a single word. 'You broke your promise twice...killua' and upon saying those words the raven kid vanish and everything turns dark. The white haired kid turns around and look through my eyes sending shivers in my spine. He- he's like me! No he's me. This kid is me many years ago when I was still a child. He glare at me with those sapphire eyes.