Just One More Mistake (Carziger)

5.

¤ Cody ¤

It's almost unbelievable the amount of times someone could repeat the same action over and over, and still enjoy themselves.

I've been a flithy little cheater for almost a month and a half now. I just couldn't help it. We'd simply end up in a room alone together, then our mouths would get glued together and we'd be pinned down on some poor soft thing. My brain would yell at me to stop, stop and get Maxx some help, far away from Austin. It was practically bang on the walls of my skull.

But everything else seemed to ignore those screams.

I leaned back onto my couch, completely blocking out whatever was playing on the television. My stomache is churning and I feel like I need to spit up my guts. What the hell is wrong with me, how could I let myself do this to Maxx? Every time I can see the hurt hiding behind his eyes and I just ignore and focus on the lust, the 'yes'. God, I really want to punch myself right now.

A interupting groan came from my stomache, antagonizing the fact I haven't eaten anything today or the day before. 

"Oh shut up, you don't deserve anything." I snapped at myself. I had to put something in my mouth sooner or later, but even if I do eat sooner I'll throw it back up. Even my body knew I didn't deserve it, I should be burning in a pit in hell, coughing out my lungs. My innards rejected nutrition last week, it'll happen this week.

Just like you, dirty little cheater last week, dirty little cheater this week.

I was about to start yelling at me again when my phone buzzed way too obnoxiously on the coffee table. I sighed, guessing it was one of the boys deciding to have a last minute night out, as I reached for the phone. I snatched it, flipped it in one hand like a ninja because it was upside down, and read the nofication.

Austin: Hello Cody, I'd like to tal...

I scowled, but I was more suspicious than angry at this moment. Opening up my phone, I skimmed through the rest of the message, way too many emotions bubbling up to put simply in a sentencem

Austin: Hello Cody, I'd like to talk to you today about a certain someone who we are both quite 'familiar' with. If you catch my drift ; ).

I almost puked all over the screen.

Austin: I know Cody. Did you really think you could fuck my boyfriend and me not notice? Please. You're lucky I'm a understanding person, or else your head might just be plucked off your little body : ). I get it: Maxxy was oh-so-devastatingly lonely finds himself an equally lonely fuckboy. What could go wrong? So I'm going to make you an offer. You pay me each month and I keep your little secret a secret and I let you have my little whore. Oh and trust me, I have evidence of yours and Maxxy's funtimes. Bye~

I couldn't move. I can't breathe. My vision was hazy. I think I felt my phone slip onto my lap but I can't tell.

How did Austin find out? How the fuck did he find out? Maxx made me promise to keep my mouth stitched. He wouldn't do that. He made my promise so he wouldn't get hurt...

Maxx...

My phone buzzed with another text from Austin.

Austin: Our little slut is at my house, all by himself if you wanna talk~

I had to keep bile in the back of my throat stumbling out my door and into my damn car. Maxx wouldn't have agreed on a plan with Austin willingly, he had to be forced to. That had to be the reason, it had to, there wasn't another option.

I sped to Maxx's house, somewhat legally parking on the driveway, bursting through the door. "Maxx?" I called out before I noticed him on the couch. Maxx was leaning forward, wearing a flower crown for some reason, bleach hair styled perfectly blocking veiw of his pale face. He didn't seem to bother. I sat down by him on the couch, saying his name over and over again.

"Maxx?" I asked for the millionth time in five minutes.

"Cody." He finally said, turning to me. A smirk was on his face, but his eyes were filled with such sadness, just like every last week. And just like last week, my heart was going a hundred miles a second, and I'm being pushed down on something soft.

This... I'm taking him away from Austin... right?

I looked down at Maxx's pretty pink lips, avoiding eye contact, as I grabbed his hips and pulled him closer to me.

A monthly fee isn't that bad...