Just One More Mistake (Carziger)

6.

¤ Maxx ¤

If we were in a cartoon, little hearts and bubbles would be floating all around us. It probably wouldn't be a child appropriate cartoon, though. Sins weren't allowed on children's TV.

Everything was going away, when I kiss a little harder, the pain fades away faster. Just as gruesome memories of Austin almost disappeared, Cody pulled away. He pushed at my shoulders, forcing me off of him, then stood up. The whole time I stared at him confused out of my mind.

We were having a good time, why would he stop it?

Cody sighed, putting his hands up in a half-hearted defeat. "Look, Maxx," He said "I came here to talk, and that's what we're gonna do." He sat down on the couch and placed his hands on his knees. He's sitting down. Perfect.

"So Austin knows about... Us, in case you didn't know," Cody rambled. I pecked his neck, hearing his brearh hitch. I hummed to try to show I gave a fuck about whatever Cody's talking about. He kept on talking.

"...And then he sent me a text saying..."

"Mm."

"...If I pay..."

I bit down on the scar on Cody's neck, while easily slipping off his jacket.

"...Need to know what you..."

Shut up, already.

I lean in for a kiss. I know Cody leaned in too.

But he grabbed my face, stopping me.

I heard him make an annoyed noise, "Maxx." Cody said sternly. "What?" I mumbled, not really processing anything but how nice Cody's lips looked right now. Those nice lips scrunched up into an angry frown, and Cody yelled "Maxx!"

Scared, I quickly puked away from him, untangling my hands from him, and went into a loosely packed ball on the other side of the couch.

"S-sorry, Aust-st-tin" I muttered out of habit only to realize it's too late.

Cody's head spun around in every direction. Oh God, why did I say that? Dammit, he'd already mad I wouldn't listen to him now this.

Good fucking job.

After frantically scanning the area, it dawned on Cody my boyfriend wasn't here. He looked down at my pathetic self just now figuring out what he did. He quirked the side of his mouth back and ran a hand through my hair.

"Sorry," Was all Cody said.

We sat there like that for a while before Cody talked again, "Yeah... About Austin..."

"He knows about us?" I replied, playing dumb.

"Yeah... And now he wants me-"

I cannot hear him say it. I will not hear him tell the story.

"To pay so we can fuck?" I inturrupted, sparing ourselves from the details.

Cody looked at me wide eyed. He blinked a few times before his face went back to normal and he had a somewhat  response, "I guess you could put it like that..."

Three whole minutes passed of us awkwardly staring at the floor, not having a clue what the hell to say to this.

"So," I said, looking up at Cody.

"So?" Cody repeated in more of a questioning tone. "What do you want, Maxx? Do you wanna live with me? You can do that, we can get you situat-"

"No." I said, grabbing Cody's hand because I knew he was distracted.

"What? No? Maxx at you fucking crazy?-"

Yes.

I started dragging Cody just like I did the first time.

"-Here is not a place for you to live, dammit, I don't understand how you can just be here with fucking Austin all the time and not want help! For fucks sake!" He ranted a little too loudly for comfort. It's fine, though, we're in the bedroom anyway.

"Maxx," Cody said, exasperated, "I don't get how you live like this."

I felt one side of my mouth pick up.

"Well, to tell the truth, I was gonna give up," I started, while Cody looked around and realized where we were. I interrupted him by slowly pushing my lips on his. "Then you came along." I whispered by his ear.

Pulling away, I gave him a long, hard stare. I know it's my fate, but I'm shoving it in Cody's hands.

Austin will be happy.

Cody pulled out his phone and unlocked it, meeting my green eyes with  apologetic, lustful, and impatient blue one's. I stood there and watch while he went on Google.

Cody will be happy.

Watched while he typed in Bank of America.

Things will get better.

Watched while he tapped on the link.

It'll be fine.

Watched while he logged in.

Everyone will be happy.

Watched and stood there while Cody transferred five hundred dollars into Austin's account.

I'll be happy...

Cody shut off his phone and didn't hesitate to kiss me. I didny hesitate to kiss back, and began to lead us back toward the bed. The only place where all my nightmares have become real but will soon be where my only paradise has become real. Even if it's only for a short while.

Please...