Home For The Lost

Claire/Princess/Clairebear

One: Ever since she died, I’ve been feeling like an ocean. I’m trying to swim back to shore, but the waves just crash over me again and again, pushing me back. My head keeps sinking, and I keep trying to push myself up, but every single time I push up, I’m pushed back down. But when I do push myself up long enough, I get to see the shoreline, and I can see Ina there. And I try to reach her, to see her close up and remember everything about her, to tell her how sorry I am. But I just keep drifting farther and farther away.

Two: If I didn't know any better, I’d think you guys were gay lovers of something- which, by the way, isn’t improbable.

Three: I don't know; people just tend to over-think a lot, okay? Sometimes we make things so complicated when its just simple as A B C. We always have to insist that its SUPERCALIFRAGILISTIC when really, why cant it just be A? Or B? Or C?.

Four: Everyone’s a child deep down. Like children, we cling to whatever hope we find. No matter how ridiculous it sounds - like the pinwheel legend- we cling to it like a lifeline. We can’t survive without hope- hope that our problems have a solution; hope that the pain and hurt will go away; hope that life will get better. That’s how we are. The sad thing is, many of us have forgotten what its like to really be a child. We force ourselves to grow up too fast. We think that maybe the complacency of the adult mind can put all our problems into “mute;” that it would all just stop hurting. Adults like to belittle children, when in fact they should learn how to be children once in a while. Everyone’s forgotten what's it like to be a child; they don't want to admit it, but we are all children deep down.

Five: We should be all afraid of ourselves; we’re our worst enemies.

Six: Because we always have to have a reason for everything.

Seven:  I’d rather think good things and be called naive then think bad things and end up blacker than the blackest hole. Thoughts like that can break you.

Eight: There are no wrong types or kinds of anybodies.

Nine: Lets just say I changed. Death does that to people. It doesn't only take a life away; it changes everyone around that life, affecting everything around it like ripples.