you don't even know.
it's like,
it's like waking up with the insides of your body missing
you're still you
but at the same time, you're not.
it's like,
it's like having a hole in your stomach
and no matter how hard you try
or how much you eat
the food that is meant to supply
your body with nutrients
and energy
is wasted.
it's like,
it's like your eye sockets are empty,
but tears are still distributed as if they still house eyes.
everyone else sees your big brown eyes
but you see nothing,
you see death.
it's like,
it's like your lungs have disappeared into thin air
and cancer that once threatened your life had magically been taken away.
miraculously,
you still breathe,
you still survive.
you're still you,
but not really.
it's like,
it's like instead of blood
your heart runs on acid.
when it courses through your veins,
it burns, it burns just enough to destroy you
from the inside out.
and ironically,
that acid,
that chemical destroying you,
is the only thing keeping you alive.
it's like,
it's like you and I are David and Goliath.
you make an exceptional Goliath,
but I am a pathetic David.
because no matter how big Goliath is,
or how cruel his taunts are,
or how broken he makes Goliath feel,
David can never kill Goliath.
because killing Goliath,
would mean David has to kill himself.
it's like,
it's like being on an airplane for the first time.
at first, you're fearful,
then follows excitement;
no matter how strong the excitement,
fear of falling out of the sky
is always present.
you don't even know.
