Out of all honesty
I feel like shouting
I feel like raising my voice
And waving my hands
And punching you in the face
I feel like breaking all your fingers
And knocking out all of your teeth.
I feel like breaking your heart
And ripping apart your soul.
Ironically
At the same exact time
I feel like packing up all of my things-
Including this broken heart-
And leaving you.
But how can I leave?
I can't.
I am too weak.
I feel like ruining your career
And exposing you to the whole world.
I feel like running over your body with a car
I feel like shooting you in the stomach while you beg-
Scream for mercy
Mercy?
Where was my mercy?
I feel like cheating on you
I feel like forgetting your entire existence for one night of paradise
I feel like getting over you
I feel like killing us
And all of our dreams.
I feel like falling apart-
I feel like losing myself.
