My Ideal Imperfect Family

missing drei

Yesterday's tears is forgotten. I have been overwhelmed seeing my only best friend known half of my life having someone dear now aside from me. I just shrug any bizaare feelings that it brings. Besides those are weird emotions i never dealt with, it's strange mainly brcause this is new to me. Eventually I'l get used to it and it will feel naturally.

Since today is a Weekend and I made all my homeworks and stuffs there more time for me to read and cater for my orchids. It's facinating to see something so wonderful you grow blooms. All the hard work and patience really pays off.

Whenever I'm tending my orchids or reading, i feel like I'm in my own bubble of clarity. Everything is so refine and vivid calmness soothes me. I currently spoil my self with it's serenity when a an incessant ringing break my peace. who could it be to barge this early at 9:00 on a weekend?

i open the door to be surprised seeing Mark. i immediately hide my shocked seeing sadness in his eyes or i'm just mistaken it was because it's gone before i could really dwell into it.

"it's nice seeing you mark. what brings you here?" i genuinely offered a smile after my initial shock wears off.

well, it seems that your disappointed to see me" he pouted feigning hurt

don't be ridiculous, it's just that i'm not expecting anyone today" i said trying to avoid his gaze

really?,  i thought your expecting someone but got disappointed when you saw was me."

"uhmm well, i just thought that since we just meet each other. "and i thought it was drei because its our bonding time suppose today the later though did not blurt the latter reason.

"i got you there!" he said with subtle mirth and mischief

i tried to respond with a glare in which fails terribly because of his cute puppy face. how can i be mad then.

"alright mr. so awesome why don't you invite yourself in"  i widely open the door in which he enters like i will change my invite soon. he's reaaly funny like a child.

"so what do we have here?" he said like its normal to be familiar to a place he just known.

you might as well turn the tv and get comfy with my sofa while watching movie, why don't i make you popcorns?" i told him with amusement for his familiarity.

i actually expect him to be shy somehow by teasing him but instead he got up like he just had a Eureka moment saying, "why i haven't think of it, that's great. so what are we watching"

he's really hopeless. i just make my way to the kitchen to make popcorns but good thing is that nanny finished bakinf first set of her cookies. I'm really lucky to have her.

she instanly smiled seeing me. it's a kind of smile full of affection that warms me like a hug whenever she offers it.

can we have them?"

"silly, of course. just help yourselves while I'm waiting for the rest to be done."

"what are you going to watch this time? i know it's drew turn to choose"
her question bring sadness that i had forgotten. her smile was gone seeing that i suddenly stopped.

so i tried to smile not to worry her.
"it's actually Mark that i'm watching with. shocking right?"

still taken, she tried consoling me.

"in the bright side you get to grow your circle. you get to know someone aside from drew. it's progress and i'm happy for you my princess." she hugs me and kisses my temple loke she always do. Nanny really knows the right thing to say. it somehow lightens my mood.

"thank you, nana" i said while returning the hug wholeheartedly.

"okay, go there now and I'll be making the popcorns instead" she shoos me away.

"thanks again" can't help the smile i wear whle heading to Mark.

"is that what i think it is?" Mark meet me halfway like an over eager puppy.

"okay, okay sit so you can have your treat"

"hey, do i look like a dog to you,?" he protest.

"nope"

he smiles but as soon as he heard me say "you look like an adorable puppy wagging it's tail" it dropped.

"that's not cool" he said annoyed but never the less mischief is ever present it his eyes.

just like that we spen the whole watching movies or if you call that watching since every now abd then we bicker and argue a lot. it's actually fun. a moment there i forgot my drei's abscence knowong that he might be with Charm, understandable since she's his girlfriend besides I'm really happy for him. and i know i will soon accept the idea that my best friendhas now a girlfriend and that his world will not revolve around our frienship...

i hope it will be soon, so that i will not feel this nagging feelings that pinches my chest whenever he miss our bonding together. i guess i should stop asking more of his time for it might ruin whatever blooming relationship he may have.

i sleep off reminding to limit my expectations from Drei. i keep chanting to never expect much more of his time and attention an from now on i will try to open myself to others as well and im so fortunate to have mark as well. with that in mind i dose off to dreamland...