I Kidnapped Carson Lueders 2: Return of Cassandra

The Breakup

Here's what we've all been dreading but it had to happen...

Jordyn's POV

It is 10PM. Where is Carson? He hadn't even texted me once. Is he okay? I hear the door open and turn around. "Carson!" At first I was relieved but then I immeadiately became angry. "What the hell?!" 

"What?" Carson looked at me absentmindedly. 

"Where have you been?" I put a hand on my hip.

Carson sighed in annoyance, "I was with friends, I already told you!"

"So why didn't you reply to my messages?" I shoved my phone in his face. 

He groaned loudly, "What is your problem Jordyn?!" What is my problem?! How dare he?! 

"I was worried about you, Carson!" I shouted, "You're acting like a complete dick! Why do I even care about you?!"

"I don't know!" He shouted back, "Why do you care?!" It seemed all the anger inside of me had been let out. I didn't know what else to do. I couldn't seem to stop the tears welling in my eyes. "Maybe it's because I think if I don't care about you Carson," before I could finish my sentence all the tears gushed out but I carried on talking regardless, "who will?" 

Carson's eyes widened in realisation and the frown disappeared. "Jordyn," he said softly pulling me into his chest and wrapping his arms around me. I sobbed as I grabbed onto him tightly. Carson hadn't hugged me like this in so long. I buried my face into his sweater savouring the touch of his muscular body. "I'm so sorry," he whispered, his voice cracking a little bit. Was he crying? I looked up and sure enough, despite his efforts to keep it in, I could see him sniffling. 

"I forgive you," I smiled wiping the tears off his face with my hand. He smiled too but then he stopped. It was as if he had just remembered something really bad. "I can't do this," Carson pulled away. Wait, what? 

I took his hand, "What's wrong?"

"I-if we stay t-together," he took a deep breath and carried on, "It's going to be the same!"

I was confused but also scared, I think I knew what it was leading up to but I wanted so badly to be wrong. "What's going to be the same?" I took Carson's other hand. 

"I'm going to hurt you and then you're going to forgive me and we'll keep going back round!" He pulled his hands back. 

"But forgivness is key to a relationship!" I said trying to sway his opinion. The way we were going it seemed what I assumed was correct and that's not a good sign. 

"Yes but not on this scale!" Carson sighed. "I know what I've been doing to you. You're hurt, I can see it in your eyes." 

"C-Carson-"

"No, let me finish," he told me firmly but kindly, "You're hurting everyday, I'm not an idiot! I can tell." I wanted so badly to tell him he was wrong but no matter how hard I tried to think of exuses nothing came up. So I just let him carry on. 

"You never tell me when you're upset and that hurts me! And then I'm stupid enough to just leave you in that state!" He laughed a little. Not because it was funny but perhaps because he felt ashamed. "When I see the pain in your eyes I ask myself, 'How could I possibly deserve you?' And I never seem to think of an answer. But I've came to a conclusion. I don't deserve you."

I was unable to speak, "Carson, are you trying to..."

"Look Jordyn, I really don't want us to end on bad terms," Carson put his hand on my shoulder. That one word, 'end' confirmed it. That's when I knew what he wanted to do. He wanted to break up with me. Now that I knew that I didn't even know how to respond. 

"B-but I-I still love you!" I said. 

"I know," Carson looked hurt, "I still love you." That seemed to comfort me in a weird way, but I still felt uneasy about this whole situation. "So why do you want to break up then?" That was the first time the words 'break up' were used in this whole conversation. "It's not that I want to Jordyn, it's that I have to," was Carson's reply. "I just want you to be happy," he caressed my cheek. 

I put my hand on his, "But I am happy Carson!" 

"You're not," he said, "I know you're not." I tried desperately to think of something to say. 

"Carson," was the only word I could get out of my mouth before I broke down into tears. 

"Jordyn," he cupped my chin, "None of this your fault, okay?" I couldn't stop myself from crying, all I could do was nod. I know it isn't my fault and, to be fair, I'd rather break up like this than with a giant argument that would make us hate eachother for the rest of our lives. But it still hurts like hell! "It's no one's fault," I sniffed, "But... I just wish that this worked out." I took a deep breath and the tears had stopped. 

"Yeah, so do I," Carson said sadly but then he smiled and said, "But you can be happy now." 

"And so can you," I smiled back at him. Carson's reply was a simple nod. Knowing we were both happy (well, as happy as our pain would let us be), I then pulled him into a hug, "Friends?" 

He hugged me back, "Forever."

Ladies and gentlemen, that is the official end of Jarson (don't hate me! 😣) But you gotta admit that last part was cute, eh?❤️ Don't be too surprised at the breakup though, because I was proper baiting it out. I don't ship them so I ain't that bothered but I know some of you readers do, so sorry for triggering you! 😂 But they're still friends so do you forgive me? 😊 AND I updated twice in one day! So really, you guys shouldn't even be angry! Ngl though, I like Jordyn and Carson better as friends, just my opinion. 

Until next time and may the force be with you...