This isn't goodbye! [Yuri On Ice!!] (Victor X Yuri)

[2 Love Blinds Us]

To Victor,

Hey, how ya doing? It's been a bit since I saw you at the Europeans... I really thought you were going to compete in the competition but you didn't. I noticed you looked... sad. So many little possibilities on why you could be sad, so why do I keep thinking it was my fault for leaving...
There was an outfit laying on the dressing room addressed to you. So don't say it doesn't fit before you try it on, there's too much chance that it would look stunning on an amazing figure skater like you.

Anyway to the topic of this letter, I guess I wanted to write this to say how I loved to and you loved me blinded us from what was really happening in real life to us. We did everything together, you showed me a new side of me id never seen before and it feels like there's something here and I want to see it before it disappears but it went a long time ago and if there's something real between me and you well are we both open to all these possibilities because we were. Until I was shown how love just takes away all the problems in the world, Victor, it blinded me from seeing how much of your life you had to live without me holding you back. You had world champion 5 times in a row Victor... Why did you take the season break? Why did you come train me? Why did you set yourself back for me? You didn't even know me back then, you just came. Don't give me hope when there's nothing to this as that's what you did to me Victor. You gave me hope. You gave me the hope that I would become this champion bigger than you ever were.

That's the thing about hope Victor, its not real. You were so blinded by the love for me you didn't see how bad I was doing. You didn't see how I was getting tired out easily, or the injuries on my legs or how I got really nervous before performances. When I said we should of stopped this before the Grand Prix Final Free Skate I meant it. I had long realised by that point that even if we worked so well together, we couldn't last. Not with you staying as my coach, I'd kept you back from skating one season, I couldn't do it for another season. I tried so hard to catch up to you and I did at one point of the season, I was far enough to have some time to see all these choices and bad decisions that we both made.

I still really love you so much but not as much as I loved you before. It's written in the stars, we are who we are and that simply means that I cant be with you because you are such a unique person that deserves a person much better than me.

From Yuri Katsuki,

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Victor received the letter from Yuri early in the morning via post. Recognising the handwriting off his lover, Victor opened the letter and red the contents of it. He became all sad and teary eyed while reading it. Although Victor knew he left for a good reason, he had a burning thought in the back of his mind saying that it was mostly his fault for pushing Yuri too much to the point that he left. That thought was the only consistent theory to why Yuri left in Victor's mind even if the letters said otherwise.

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SONG CHOSEN FOR THIS CHAPTER:
POSSIBILITIES BY FREDDIE STROMA

Don't break my heart before I give it to you
Don't tell me no before I ask you to
Don't say it doesn't fit before you try it on
There's too much to lose to be wrong

And it feels like there's something here
But I wanna see it before it disappears
And if there's something real between me and you
Well, are we both open to

All these possibilities
So many little possibilities
Right in front of us
Close enough to touch
And far enough to have some time to see
All these possibilities
Whoa, these possibilities
Are written in the stars
We are who we are, baby,
And I can't help but think that possibly
There's possibilities

Don't give me hope if there's nothing to this
Don't let me in if you're not there
What I'm feeling doesn't happen everyday
So, baby, please play me fair

And it feels like there's something more
Than those crazy little crushes I've felt before
When you move in closer I can feel the rush
And now we're so close we can touch

All these possibilities
So many little possibilities
Right in front of us
Close enough to touch
And far enough to have some time to see
All these possibilities
Whoa, these possibilities
Are written in the stars
We are who we are, baby,
And I can't help but think that possibly
There's possibilities

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