Glimpse Of My Soul "A collection of poems"

Too hard to love

It's too hard to love when I know it's pain when it's burning torture courses through my veins
every hope and betrayal burned into my brain
and one more betrayal could drive me insane

So I try to be cautious and I try to refrain
but it's not so simple to simply abstain to turn away love again and again
to always restrain and remain in chain

But if I grow hope that there's something to gain
that the idea of Love isn't mundane that the feelings to follow won't be inhumane
then maybe it's something that I could attain

If these conflicting thoughts weren't overlain
so confusing and jumbled I can't ascertain
still they expect answers when I'm asked to explain
when I can't they get angry frustrated and complain

They insist I control my emotional domain
not understanding it's unknown terrain
and if I explore it I couldn't sustain
to face all these feelings and every tear stain

Cuz it's not bad enough to live this migraine
no they want me to be emotionally slain
it's too hard to love so I will remain watching people love through my window pane

Accepting it's something I'll never obtain
or get the chance to turn it to distain for this is the only way I can maintain it's too hard to love when you know it's pain