Help! I'm stuck in this body

Chapter 6

Harry.

I got back to Poppy's apartment and dived onto the couch. I rubbed my arms and came across some scars on the wrists. I looked at them carefully.  They looked quiet old but still visable. I ran into Poppy's room hopefully there would be a clue to all this.

I looked through the draws, behind the wardrobe, under the bed and then under the pillow is where I found a diary. I looked through it, the first page was when she was 6 and when I stole her bobbles and chucked them into the pond.

All the pages were filled with things that were important. Mostly it was about me. I came to a page when she was 15. I read it.

Dear Diary,

It happened again. I know I keep saying I'll stop but I just cant, he makes me feel so worthless and pathetic. I dont know what I did to make him hate me. Today I was late because Nancy was sorting out her hair in the car before she drove off, but I wouldnt blame her, I mean shes gorgous and has guys falling for her day in, day out.

I ran into the hell hole, known as school. I ran through the corridors. There were two people kissing. Louise and Harry, they always use eachother. I backed up hoping they wont see me. As always luck was never on my side, they noticed me.

Harry smirked at me. The smirk that haunts me to this day forward. He walked towards me. I thought that because we were in school he wouldnt hurt me, but I was wrong. He slapped me across my face, hard I must say. I fell to the floor wincing in pain.

Louise giggled. I tried to get up but she stamped on my hair. She kicked me multiple times, she was wearing heels, I mean who wears heels to school. After awhile she gave Harry a peck on the cheek and left.

This scared me because hes worse when alone. He pulled me up and dragged me out of school. He pulled me down to the woods below, no one comes here, they all think its haunted or something. This gave Harry the advantage.

He started pulling on my clothes. He chucked my top off. I tried covering myself up, he has never done this before.

He shoved me to the floor and layed on top of me and you can pretty much guess what he did next. I decided to not write it in the diary because I know I'll get nightmares about that moment and plus its only me who will go through this.

I had hit my head though. I clutched my throbbing head when I woke up. I felt something on my head, I brought it to my face and found a heavy amount of blood. I tugged my clothes on and ran home. Harry had left me.

I unlocked my house and ran to my room to get the blade. I brought it in contact with my skin and did what needed to be done. I watched at the blood flowed out and it cover the blade.

I dont want to be his little toy. Why did he do it anyway, to him I have always been the pathetic weak girl no one worries about. Why?

Tears rolled down my eyes, how could I have been so horrible to her. I turned a couple of pages and carried on reading.

Dear Diary,

My family found out today. They found out about the misery I've been going through. Nancy already knew but only part of it.

It was today supposed to be a special day, my birthday. Unfortunatly it was Harry's too. Yeah, we shared the same birthday.

I went into school, early. My parents had bought me clothes that everyone and I mean everyone wears. I felt cool. I heard some laughing and turned around. There was Louise and her little group. They were not wearing the same clothes as me.

No, they were wearing nicer clothes. They laughed at how stupid I looked. I thought my birthday was ruined but I just smiled and carried on. I'm wasnt going to let some fake, caked face, bitch ruin it.

I got into class and the teacher wasnt there. I went to my seat, not even the pupils were here. I heard some shouting. I stepped out of class and went round the corner.

There was a group of people with their phones filming and laughing. A teacher pushed past me, the pupils made a gap for him to go through, I saw Harry and Mason fighting. They were the two most popular guys in this school, and  best friends I must add.

The teachers tried pulling the pair of them off eachother. Harry soon broke loose and came in my direction. He noticed me and took his anger out on me.

He held me up against the lockers. My head hit the lockers as they rattled. People were now circled around us and recording. Harry kept hitting me on the lockers. He let go of me and I fell down to the ground from such a hight.

He kicked me in the stomach and head multiple times. He spat on my face and left. I  picked myself up and ran out of the school. I ran to my  house and into the bathroom. My mother was home and in the kitchen.

I didnt go to my blade, I went straight to the drugs that were in cupboard. I heard Nancy and locked the door. I picked the packet up and ripped it open. It all scattered across the floor. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I screamed trying to  pick them up.

There was a knock at the door, followed by Nancy and my mother screaming for me to open the door. I sat down and rested my head on the bath. I finally got up and filled the bath. I just wanted to end my life then and there.

No ones going to miss me, my parents always preferred Nancy to me. I grabbed a blade that I hid, so incase anyone found the one I hid in our room I always had this one. I sliced the blade across ny stomach before getting into the bath.

The water turned red and I chucked the tablet down. The door barged open and Nancy and my mother came in, but my eyes fluttered closed and was filled with darkness.

I chucked the diary on the floor. ''you read that huh'' a voice said. I looked up and saw Poppy well me. ''yeah''. she stepped in the room and crouched down to pick the diary up. I lifted my top and looked at the huge scars that wrapped around the stomach.

I cried hard.

''I'm sorry Poppy''