Give Me Love ~LarryStylinson Fanfic {was not written by the owner of account}

Chapter Six

**Louis POV** [the night he found Harry's notebook]

I looked at the small brown leather notebook in my hands. I hadn't opened it and I don't know if I should. The front cover of this notebook was all doodled on and written with black sharpie and pen. I knew how much this book meant to Harry. To me all the doodles on it were random. To Harry they meant something specific.

One and only was written out on the spine of the journal. And there were other things that weren't as readable all over the covers of the notebook.

There was a small phrase I couldn't read very clearly. All I made up of it was

She doesnt_________________ let us love

I gulped as I started to open the notebook to a random page in the middle or so of it.

I looked down at the scribbly handwritting of Harry.

It looked like a diary entry. He even dated it and all. I smiled a bit at how girlish that was of him. And then, I found myself reading it.

September 16, 2012.

      Bull he called it bullshit. Ha. Of course he did. What else would he call it? :/

      I guess I expected for him to call it... love. Wow. Just... WOW! You are such a girl Harry! Why can't I just accept that he is happy? That he doesn't need me? That I'm just his FRIEND?!!! Nothing more. Nothing else.

N.O.T.H.I.N.G! :/

I think it's cute tho. How our fans think we are a couple. Larry. Larry Stylinson :). If only they were right. If only Lou would see me like that. IF ONLY... but he doesn't. And he NEVER will.

I need to understand that... :(

~Harry S.

I closed the book as a finished reading that entry. I remember that day. I had called Larry, bullshit. I remember that I was with Eleanor that day and some rude people would call her names. And I remember I saw her cry and I didn't like it. And then I got on twitter and all I saw was how I didn't love Eleanor. How I was gay. How Harry was my boyfriend. And I got more and more mad until I tweeted that fan that. I never thought about it. I must have hurt more than one person. And most importantly Ive hurt Harry.

"I didn't know." I whispered to the air. And I didn't. Around that time I do remember I was having some troubles with Eleanor. And Harry was always there to comfort me. Sometimes I did get to close to Harry. I remember that I felt so good in his arms. But I never thought why. Not until now. He always made me feel right, and always comforted me. And I loved it when he held me tight.

Fuck. I opened the book again this time from the begining and I began to read.

I skimmed through most of it. The begining wasn't much. Most of it was how his day went and what he dreamt. And as I kept reading. He mention the fact that he was auditioning for the Xfactor and was excited, but nervous at the same time. 

Reading on I got to an entry were I came up. It wasn't exactly on the begining but it was close to it.

Feburary 22, 2011

Louis. His name is Louis Tomlinson. I met him today. On the Xfactor bootcamp in the bathroom! :) He is funny. He makes me laugh so much. Great lad. And not bad looking either hehe! ;)

~Harry

My smile grew at that entry. I always knew Harry was openly bisexual when he was young. That he liked people for their inside not their gender. He wasn't so open about it as he grew afraid he would get made fun of and to protect us, the band.