Addicted.

Catching For Breath And Tears.

It had been a couple of weeks of seeing Josh occasionally and we have became extremely close.
Best friends.

My phone buzzed like 10 times in my pocket and I checked it, the messages were from Josh, or 'Jish' which is what he is in my phone.

Jish: Yoooo we should get lunch.
Jish: Wait...where even are you lmao.
Jish: Come onnnn, Tyler's getting impatient.
Jish: Oh yeah, Tyler wants to come and have lunch with us and he's bringing Jenna.
I finally decided to text him back.
Me: Omg I love Jenna, I'm definitely coming now then.
Josh: Oh...so now you reply, it's ok, I see who you're new best friend is...it's cool.
Me: Soz m8

I lock my phone and put it back in my pocket.
I was in the store buying some everyday shiz because I haven't been shopping in ages and I've ran out of pretty much everything, including toilet paper.

My phone buzzed again.

Jish: Fight me, anyway I'll come and pick you up in about 10 minutes.
Me: Dude...that's it enough time.
Jish: Run.

I rolled my eyes and smiled.

My basket was pretty full so I guess I could checkout now.

(Time skiiiiip)

"I'm running as fast as I can okay?!" I yelled a couple of yards away from josh as we were running to my apartment to see who could get there first.
We finally got to my apartment complex and I opened the door whilst blowing the hair out of my face as I was pretending to be mad at Josh for getting to the door before me.

I unlocked my door and closed it behind Josh.
Josh needed to talk to me about something that was apparently serious...I could never take that boy seriously even when he was trying to be serious...his personality is just too adorable.

We both sat down on my sofa and I crossed my legs and turned to him.
"So...I wanted to talk to you about next week." Josh starts.
"Next week?" I said confused.
"Tour..." he reminded.
Oh fuck...I completely forgot that he was leaving soon...it's been a good couple of weeks but I didn't know it's been that long since he first came here.
"Oh...yeah right." I look down at my legs that were crossed even tighter now.
He was speaking to me for a good 20 minutes but it was all a blur, I couldn't believe he was going...he was leaving me.
The last thing he said was "I'm trying to figure something out."
He sounded almost torn apart whilst saying that one sentence...
If the definition of sadness in someone's voice was a sentence and said by a specific person...it would be Joshua Dun saying those six words to me that formed a sentence that could well be the last.
I've gotten so close to Jenna and Tyler too...we even saw Brendon one week and now I speak to Sarah daily.
This...this is going to change everything.
Before I let him say anything else, I just hugged him and I began sobbing in his arms...
"I-I know that these weeks we have been together may have been insignificant to you, but they meant something to me, every moment I've been with you...I've been happy, and being in college it's hard to always be happy, when you go on tour I don't want to forget, I don't want to forget you J-Josh, I know you're going for 6/7 months...but a single person can change within days...I've became almost addicted to you, how you speak to me, how you touch me...how you look at me." I couldn't speak for long before he smashed his lips against mine.
Oh.
(I didn't write the weeks they've spent together, doing stuff because it represents how fast it happened and how "insignificant" it may be...)

The kiss intensified and intensified.
Josh's T-shirt came off within minutes...woah, I really didn't expect anything like this, I'm really not a sexual person but he's pulling me in.
He pulled away for air and I ran my hands against his stomach, my fingers went slights up and down as they trailed against the muscles on his stomach.
I went back in for a second kiss and then all of a sudden my shirt was off...I don't know how to feel about this, I mean there's been a lot of tension but I didn't think that there was THIS much tension, shit.
As we kissed I accidentally bit his lip which caused us to laugh.
Josh grabbed my hand and intertwined our fingers together as we both went down on the sofa, I was now lying on my back and Josh was hovering over me.
Still kissing, Josh began to move his other hand down my stomach until he got to my pant line, the trail he left behind lingered and sent chills down my spine.
His touch was so delicate and flowed with our bodies.
He began to move his hands even lower and he got to my lady area and I broke the kiss and started to breath heavily.
What the fuck is happening.
"Is this ok?" Josh says breathlessly.
I just nod and let it all happen.

It gets more intense.
Adrenaline.
Adrenaline.
Fucking adrenaline.
My hips begin to move with his hand and I feel him smirking...
He's fucking me up so much.
He picks up pace and starts kissing my neck.
"B-baby." Accidentally slips out of my mouth whilst I was moaning.
"You like that?" He smirks right at me.
This causes me to tense up and bite my lip.

Things get faster, my breath gets quicker and then suddenly it feels like I'm flying...well for a good 20 seconds...

"J-josh."
"Shhh." He shushed me and planted his lips against mine again.
What is happening right now, we're good friends but this has got me fucked up.
He seems to know his shit...is he like this with every girl he meets?

"Lunch, tomorrow, 10am." Joshua broke the kiss for air.
I nodded and pulled my hands through my hair.
Then he left.

Was this is plan all along, to get close to me and then when he gets me alone he...
I squint my eyes and put my index and middle fingers against my head and rubbed my temple.
He never seemed like the person to do that, but fuck that was good.
I'm getting in too deep.