He Saved My Life

~ Chapter three ~

Tuesday

It's in the middle of the night and the clock is currently 2.07 AM. I can't sleep and I don't know why. Maybe because I have a very important test in school this morning? Maybe it is because i am nervous or something? I always hate when I can't sleep, because I don't know how to get tired so I can sleep. I can't talk with any of my friends, because they are probably already sleeping. What should I do?

Even though I know that it's not good to be on a device before going to sleep, I went to go and get my phone. No notifications, no new episode of The vampire diaries, no one active.

In my mind i told myself: "Maybe i can sleep by listening to music or something? That will maybe calm my nervs down a little bit. Why not?"

I got my phone out from the charger and went fast to my bed, because the floor was very cold. The headphones were beside me, on my small desk, so I grabbed them too.

I opened the Spotify app and clicked further to my playlist called "Favourites". In that moment i also realized that the majority of the songs in my playist, are songs made by Shawn. I played "Never be alone", closed my eyes and thought about absolutely nothing. Everything was just black and my mind was empty. The only thing i did,  was to listen. Listen to my favourite song.

It was just so calming to lay in my bed and listen to music. Wow,  i should do this more often.

  7.38 AM

"Sometimes it all gets a little to much,  but you...". The music was on all night long and the headphones was still in my ears. This resulted to the fact that i couldn't hear my alarm,  or my mom who was telling me to wake up a few times. School starts at 8 AM. Oh no,  I am late!  

I have a very important test today. I am lucky though, because i have it in like 4 hours, so i won't be late to the test.

I am rushing up from my bed,  faster than ever. Fastly I brush my teeth, fix my hair, dress up and pick up an apple from the fridge to eat on my way to the bus. I have no time to make a tumblr breakfast. I put on my shoes, jacket and take my bag in the same moment as i tell my parents goodbye.

I am running. The clock that I usually wear is not on my arm because I totally forgot to put it on and my phone is dead because of the cold weather. I have no idea about the time. I am just running with a small amount of hope. I can't miss the bus. Not today.

After 3 minutes of running I am finally at the bus station. The bus is like 20 meters away and the only thing I'm doing is to try to catch my breath. Usually it's not hard at all for me to run this small road,  but i have no energy.

I got myself a seat in the bus. Never again. I am never gonna wake up late again. It feels okay in a sort of way though. I mean,  it's because of Shawn, and you can't get sad at Shawn. It's not my fault that his music is amazing. Waking up to him singing was the best feeling ever.