Broken minds and twisted bones [Continued Elsewhere]

Shattered pieces just shattered more

NAGISA POV

     Everytime I close my eyes, I see the same thing. I see my mother,  hitting me and just...  hurting me like usual.  And,  as always,  I'm passive and just let it happen.  But then,  everything turns black. And when I come to,  my mother is in front of me,  bleeding out and shaking in fear,  yelling and begging for me to leave her alone and that she's sorry. Heh, she's such a coward...
      I mean, I know it's not a dream. I know I'm the one who did all that but... It wasn't me... I know,  that doesn't make sense... Dammit. I can't believe Karma made me sleep. I hate it,  all 'cause that scene just plays over and over and over and over...
     "-isa! Nagisa, wake up!" My eyes shot open as I heard Karma yell my name,  seemingly concerned. I immediately sat up, wincing in pain. He carefully pushed me back down.
     "K-Karma... What's wrong..?" He sat next to me,  mouth agape. I layed,  puzzled.
     "You really don't know?" He asked. I shook my head softly. "You were screaming and crying and scratching at your face. Dude,  you're bleeding!"
     I touched my face before pulling it away, my eyes setting on crimson.  Without realizing it,  I'd started crying once more.
     "Dammit... dammit, dammit, dammit!" I screamed.  Karma jumped back a bit as I placed my hands on my face to cover my tears and muffle my incoming screams.
     "Why!? Why me!? What did I ever do!? Why did I have to be the one with the messed up life!?" I kept repeating things like that,  over and over.  That was,  until Karma... hugged me.....
     "I'm sorry, Nagisa.  You're right,  you didn't deserve what happened to you,  whatever that was. But I promise,  I'll never let anything happen to you again."
     I closed my eyes and melted into Karma's warm embrace. My tears wet his shirt.  Every other time I've been hugged it was cold and demanding... But this,  this was... so... so soft and warm. Though, I can't help but feel that I'm a burden...
    After awhile, I stopped crying and pulled away from Karma. He touched the dried blood on my face,  signing sadly.          "Nagisa... these are gonna scar." I looked down. "I-I'm sorry..." His eyes shot up to look at mine.
     "It's not your fault, Nagisa. It's hers.  Please don't blame yourself." "But-" "No buts. Now, let's clean you up." He stood and extended a hand to help me stand.
I took it, only to fall to the floor.
     "S-Sorr-" "It's not a problem." Karma smiled at me... His smile is so nice. He picked me up,  putting me on his back.
     He took me to the bathroom,  setting me down on the toilet seat. I stared down at my feet as he rummaged through his cabinet for something to clean my wound.

I don't understand something...

Why is he being so nice to me?

I left him for five years...

Shouldn't he hate me?