Your first love is, the weird one. You've never loved someone before?? It's all new concepts to the mind. Usually your first love comes when you're too young for them to really matter. I don't know...
My first love had dark brown hair like me and he had brown eyes, mine are blue. He lived a half an hour away from me and me being 14, didn't have much means of transportation. But we still managed to see each other. He was my first kiss and I remember it so clearly... He kissed me at the park and I was so scared I didn't kiss back and nearly died right there. My anxiety has always been one of my closest friends.
After my first kiss, I never wanted to stop kissing. I loved this new profound feeling and I always wanted to feel it. I loved the way it felt to hold someone's hand and hug them and tell them you love them.
But being my first love it was bound to come to an end and it did...
Not only did I feel what it was like to be in a relationship with someone... I felt what it was like to have your partner be unfaithful. We were just kids but I knew that if you were with someone... you shouldn't be kissing, or touching "friends" of the opposite sex.
I remember lying facedown on my bed and crying or hours. Was this heartbreak? At age 14 I was able to feel heartbreak. Although it's not one of the better feelings, it's good to know that at least at one point in time, I could feel that.
