The outcast

Expected

There are plenty of ways to die but only love can kill you and keep you alive to feel it.

                                                     ~Leo Christopher 

Its been about two months since I shifted. Things have been a lot better because of my wolf, I can finally say that I'm not alone anymore Sarima has been my best friend, my sister and my coach. I haven't met my mate yet because he's away on pack business before I could get to him.

I finished training myself by the waterfall at noon so I head back for lunch. When I got close to the pack house I could smell my mate. I was elated that I finally could talk to him and show him how strong I've gotten . I ran into the house and followed his scent but something was strange his scent was mixed with another. Maybe he's talking to someone in there, I walked up to the door and opened it.

There was Vivian on top of my mate having sex I couldn't move because my body was in shock a pain shot through my heart and my tears fell silently. I know they could smell my scent in the room but they didn't stop, I watched my mate making love to the woman that helped make my life hell, I watched him give something that is sacred  and meant for the two of us alone to someone else, I watched her moan in the ecstasy that he was giving her and no matter how much I tried to move I couldn't. My body was numb and stuck watching her run her hands through his hair and let out a scream while he brought her to her peak. And they collapsed on the bed breathing hard. They finally turned and looked at me

"Enjoyed the show fatty? That's something that will never happen to you" Vivian said with a smirk on her face.

Cole just looked at me with a blank stare his face held no emotion as he saw me his mate breaking apart in front of him. I fell hard on my knees, violent sobs shock my body. I lifted my head and looked at him again but he wasn't even looking at  me, he was making out with Vivian again. My body finally moved I ran to my room and realized that I was completely worthless what scared me the most is that I hadn't heard a thing from my wolf but I could feel her mourning for the loss of her mate.

Sarima please listen to me, I am sorry for being too ugly for our mate's human side and I'm sorry that because of me you lost your mate I said through our mind link. 

" its not your fault belle, the human is just an ass I could feel his wolf fighting him but he couldn't do anything" she said with a whimper. 

We need to leave this place, I can't stand to see my mate with someone else, I can't bare to see giving loving someone that isn't me, I can't witness him marrying Vivian or getting her pregnant with his pups 

Sarima didn't reply to me I just felt her fade away to the back of my mind and I took that as her approval. I packed a small backpack with some clothes and Money that I had saved over the years.I decided to write a letter to my brother and mate.

Dear Aaron, 

                          I know you hate me and although I don't know the reason why I just want to say I'm sorry for whatever I did. I'm sorry for being a fat worthless sister that is an embarrassment to you all the time. Even tho you bullied me and abused me when you were supposed to love me and protect me I still love you with all my heart and I still had hope that you would come around eventually but you never did.

I forgive you for all the times you hurt me I hope I see you again one day. But for now I'm leaving I can't bare to see my mate happy with another. I will always love love you my dear brother even though you would rather me dead.

                                                            Sincerely the fatty

I also wrote a letter to my mate and left it on my dresser. I took one last look of the room I spent most of my life in. I gazed at the white walls that look so dull and lifeless, the dresser that once held my old raggedy clothes and the cardboard that I lay my head on every night. I walked out of the back door, shifted and ran like my life depended on it. As I crossed my pack's territory I felt my mind link fading and my bind with the pack breaking.