Promise?

I'd Say Hello Again

When people trust and get betrayed,

when promises are broken that were made,

they get upset cause they are hurt,

they regret their love like fire burns.

I have a confession.

I don't see things this way.

I'm not afraid to be burned by the flames.

If I could go back to the very first day,

if I had a chance to change how I behaved,

if I could would I keep things the same?

Knowing I'd be left alone in the end,

knowing I'd gain some scars that won't mend.

If I saw in the future this pain it would cause,

I'd still do it all over again just because.

Rewind and back track.

Look at the beginning.

Would we have danced, acting so silly?

Would I have talked to you daily?

If I already knew everything I'd go through?

Curious I was of what we may become.

Without a worry I thought only of fun.

If somebody told me it would all end,

right after I grew to fully depend,

would I have feared and ran away scared?

No cause I was told and still I dared.

While I was warned I could never imagine.

Something so powerful could take over like magic.

A feeling so pure and infinite like

nothing could reach me so high in the sky.

I couldn't see how deep it could be.

I saw only something I thought I'd never see.

Scared as I am of many things,

I still craved and wondered,

could someone love me?

Imagined like a beautiful dream.

A fairytale, a picture perfect scene.

Such a dreamer of bigger meanings.

Always wanting to discover everything.

Sadly that's not how reality works.

Hearts get broken.

Feelings get hurt.

Enough to turn any girl cold as stone.

Destroyed and damaged through to the bone.

Yet even though I've gone past repair,

still I am grateful for what we did share.

Crushed and cracked and broken and shattered.

Wishing my wishes could have mattered.

Depressing and don't deny, patheticly sad,

with no independance I still need you so bad.

Down to the core I know I've been hurt.

Questioning how I could have made it work.

Making exscuses for all the mistreatment.

Anything so I wouldn't be left and lost.

But try as I may,

to make everything okay,

I failed and without reason.

Normally people would try to forget.

Only to me there's nothing to regret.

Even now that I know you are gone,

I still smile sometimes when I hear these love songs.

My smile is followed by sorrowful tears.

I can't figure out why you aren't here.

Without reason I must blame myself.

Wracking my brain to find only doubt.

All I know to do is accept how I felt.

Intensity. You could make me melt.

Complexity. Consistancy. Overwhelming. Cliche.

Happier to wake up everyday.

A chance for dreaming, coming alive.

I only want you for all of my time.

No way I'll ever accept it as over.

Thinking of you eternal, forever.

Unlike others I don't try to hate.

I'd rather die alone than get past this heartbreak.

Yet despite all the troubles,

they aren't the point I must prove,

if I knew and had the chance to remove.

If I time traveled to the first time we said hello,

I wouldn't change a thing.

You're worth so much more than you know.