Hello. Tiwa here!
I would be very surprised if anyone from my school actually wanted to read this book. Because if you can read a book that I wrote, why is it that you can't talk to me?
Let me go to the beginning. So I am 14 years old. I am in year 10 studying for my GCSE's which are next year. The problem with me is that I am lacking friends. I don't want to say I have no friends or I would be lying. But I am lacking friends. And before you say "Oh just stick with the few friends you have, it is better than none." well it is not all the friends I have that I can talk to easily.
I wonder who actually likes me for me. I mean I have high expectations for people I call my friend. If I call you my friend, you are going to be an important person in my life. I will be here for you I actually will. If you need a hug or someone to vent to I will be here. I am not a backstabber I will help you if you need help. However because of my high expectations, i get irritated when someone doesn't do the same for me.
I have never and I repeat never found a perfect relationship where the other person has the same expectations for me the I have for them. Like I am no second choice. I don't want to be the person you hang out with cause everyone else is taken. If you want to hang out with me then sure but don't hang out with me cause I'm a second choice or a backup. Apologies if I sound rude but this is how I feel.
Don't judge a book by its cover. Just because I am not smiling does not mean i am not accessible. Come and meet me before judging me. This is the problem with some people in our generation. Once they hear from person B that person A said this about them, they instantly believe that person instead of going up to person A and asking them about it. This is why friendships are broken. This is why people think I am not accessible.
But I am. I really am. Yes, I might have a lot of things on my mind but I am always here if you want to talk to someone. I am not stuck up or anything. I am me. I am Tiwa. And I could be the best friend you ever asked for. All you need to do is give me a chance. That's all.
You might think "Wouldn't it be easier if you just lowered your expectations?" but that is like telling me to change for other and I am very against that. Yes, my friends mean a lot to me but I am not going to change myself for them just because they want me to? I won't. I learnt that in life people are going to judge you no matter what you do, you will never please the whole world because everyone is different everyone have different values.
I am finished now. Those who go to my school, don't feel scared to come up to me and say hello I am not as bad as I look trust me.
Til another time.
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