The Break Down

10.

(Zayn's POV)

I groan and walk back to my office and sit down. I start to doodle new ideas for tattoos when this morning comes back up in my head. "How could she not want another kid?" I ask myself in disbelief. I know, I know I said I wasn't mad..and I'm not!, I'm just disappointed.

I run a hand over my face and throw my price of paper in the trash. Speaking of her I get a phone call and I answer it with a hand over my eye. "Yes?" She makes a weird noise and then asks. "Who answers the phone like that Zayn?, yes?, it's so formal."

She giggles and even though I'm upset I can't stay mad at her ever. I crack a smile and look down. "Right, sorry...what's up?" She takes a breath and says, "well I was calling because I want to know what dinner will be?, or what you want rather."

I shake my head and say, "I'm feeding tonight so just get food for you and Liv." She shuffles around a bit and then says, "oh okay, are you sure?" I nod and sigh. "Yes I'm sure."

I can feel her eyebrows furrow through the phone. "Are you-" I cut her off already knowing what she's gonna say.  "Yes Taylor I'm fine, are you?" It comes out more rude than I intend and I cringe. "Fuck off Zayn, I just called to ask about dinner it's not my fault you need fucking blood to survive."

Then she hangs up the phone and I sigh deeply. "Fuck." I drag out deeply. I just can't stop being upset about her not wanting another kid, I've always wanted a big family...and I love her, I want a big family with her.

I dial her back but it goes straight to voicemail. I groan and dial her again two more times. She lets it ring for a while on the last one and I think she's not gonna answer when I hear. "Hi dad."

I close my eyes and smile slightly. "Hi baby, where's mama?" She moves something around and then says, "she's driving, do you want me to tell her something?" I shake my head and bite my lip. "Could you tell her to call me back when you guys are safe home?"

She hums and says, "sure dad. I love you." I smile and say, "I love you too Livvy, bye." She giggles and says, "bye dad." I click the phone and rest it against my chin then let my eyes close on their own.

I focus on Taylor and suddenly I can hear her heart beat and hear her thoughts which are full of angry words towards me right now.

I watch as she turns her car into the drive way and Livvy says, "mama,dad said to call him back once we got home."  Taylor unbuckle her seat belt and so does Liv. Taylor holds her hand out and Livvy places the phone in it.

"Okay thank you baby, why don't you take these two bags and I will get the rest yeah?" Olivia groans and I smile slightly. Taylor rolls her eyes and says , "oh I know boo hoo, grab the bags little miss thank you much." Olivia's giggle is the last thing I hear when I fade back into my normal mind state.

I let my eyes open and I smile slightly. I will apologize and just explain to her I guess, she will understand...she always does. Just then my office door opens and I look to the door to see Harry of all people.

"What are you doing here?" I ask in genuine confusion. "Well Zayn, you see it's a tattoo parlor, I came to get a-" I roll my eyes and nod. "Yeah yeah smart ass, sit out in my chair I will be right out."

He snickers and walks out to my chair. I sigh and run a hand through my chair slipping my phone in my pocket and grab my pencil, binder. I close my door behind me and walk out to see Harry laying there with his sleeve rolled up all the way.

I sit down and sigh, "what would you like?" He hands me a sheet of paper and I unfold it taking it all in. It's a beautifully drawn crest and in the center of it is almost like a spear.