1000 Lifetimes

Late Night Wish

Another night… rain pounding on the window, clouds cover the night sky letting only one ray of moonlight in. She cries in the corner; wishing it would all end. Wishing her father would leave her alone. Wishing her friends hadn't left her. Wishing her mother was still alive. She fears going back to school the next day, but also knows it's the only place her father can't hurt her. She was happy when she learned spring break would start early that year, but wished it would have never come, anything to stay away from home. Away from the yelling, the cursing… All the beatings…

Since her mother's death, her father had become a raging alcoholic. Drink was the only thing keeping him going. But God only knew how long that would last. He blamed her for her mother's death. Said it was all her fault. That without her, life would've been easier. All she knew was that the man she once knew as her dad, was dead.

Unwilling to move, she lay in the corner, dreading the thought of going back to school. She knew she had to wear a jacket. No matter how hot it got she knew she had to. She didn't want other to see her arms and say even worse things than already did. She thought about ending it. Not a day went by for years now that she didn't want to make all the pain just… Go away. Maybe her friends would care then. Maybe her father would quit drinking. Maybe he'd kill himself too, she didn't care. The last thing she saw before finally falling into another deep sleep, was a shooting star. Flying high above the clouds. She'd never believed in making a wish on shooting stars, but figured she had nothing to lose. Closing her eyes, she whispers to herself, “take this pain away.”