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Y/N POV:

Me, Alex and Toddy were all round my place hanging out. During all of the games we played I couldnt get my mind off of Heath. The way he just randomly showed up with his 'girlfriend' it annoyed me so much but im not gonna let it show. I mean, I like Alex. But I also kissed toddy... While im deep in thought Alex brings me back to reality "Y/N?" I jump a bit but reply "yeah?' he looked at me laughing "do you want anything from the shop?" I think for a moment, "can i get a celsius please?" I asked. "you're turning into heath" he laughs then walks out of the door. After a few minutes Toddy walks over to me and sits down.

"Look Y/N im gonna come out and say this but ever since we kissed at the party I dont know, ive had mad feelings for you. More than a friend kind of feelings, like i dont know if you feel it too but I really like you so will you go out with me?" His chocolate eyes were staring into mine, i felt a little guilty because i didnt like him the same way. "I'll think about it" i quickly replied. Probably giving him false hope.

After a while Alex came back in and handed me my drink, at that moment toddy left to go to the bathroom so Alex dragged me into my kitchen. "Y/N I like you so much. I cant express it but I do really like you and I cant just sit here watching guys flirt with you infront me. Be mine?" Now i feeleven more guilty, wait. I like alex. Right? I dont think getting into a relationship with him will be good because it might ruin our friendship "i'll think about it" I simply replied giving him the same answer as Toddy.

About an hour later we were all sat on my floor watching finding nemo (Toddy chose) and i cant stop thinking about Heath. I cant stop thinking about the way he held her hand, and the way the word 'girlfriend' sounded coming out of his mouth. I needed something to distract me, and that distraction is a boy named Alex. I asked if I could speak to him and we went into my room. When I shut the door I turned around and kissed him. He instantly started kissing back. I wrapped my arms around the back of his neck and deepened the kiss. It was a lustful but yet passionate kiss. His arms wrapped around my waist as he picked me up "so does that mean you're mine?" he asked with a goofy grin on his face. "Yes you idiot" i laughed gettting down to go back to the watch the movie.

-a few days later-

me and the gang were sitting on the sofa in the boys' house just talking about stuff. Alex's hand was wrapped around mine and his head was on my shoulder. Everyone knew that we were dating apart from Heath, he hadnt been home because he was shooting a TFIL video. It hurt me to tell Toddy that me and Alex were dating because I could see how hurt he was. Everyone started talking about Heath and his new girl and as if on cue he came through the door with his girlfriend hand in hand. It made me sick to look at them so I turned around and started stroking Alex's hair. Heath came and sat down pulling the girl onto his lap in a chair opposite us. He looked at me and Alex and asked David "are they going out?" David simply replied "yeah. Almost a week." Heath looked....sad? but turned around and started kissing the girl. It made me sick to my stomach to watch them so I stood up and went into Scottys room. Heath followed me and shut the door behind me "cut the crap y/n" I turned around in shock "what are you talking about heath? open the door."

He laughed and stood in front "we both know you like me not Alex" I looked down a bit blushing. Do i like him? No you're dating Alex stop. "I dont...I love Alex." All of a sudden he placed his lips on top of mine and started kissing me softly. I dont know why but I started kissing him back. It felt right, like everything thats happened had a reason. Like everything stood still and nothing could hurt me. I pulled away knowing what I done was wrong, "goodbye Heath" I pushed him aside and walked out of the door. When I went to go back to Alex he asked me what took me so long "I felt sick and Heath helped me" i fake smiled. I hated lying to him. Just as Alex was about to fall asleep on my shoulder my phone went off, I took it out of my pocket and looked at it secretly.

-1 NEW MESSAGE-

louise: we both know you should be right here on my lap. text me when you change your mind x

Should I dump Alex? Its really early in the relationship so maybe he wont mind? I shook him a little and asked if I could speak to him in the garden. Once we were both out there I quickly started talking "Look Alex I know we only just started dating but I think that we should stop because if something bad happens later on it might ruin our friendship and I dont want that to happen" It took him a few minutes to respond. "I understand. I wouldnt want that happening either." I let out a breath and looked at him "friends?" i smiled holding my hand out, "friends" he replied shaking my hand. I went back inside and walked into Heaths room taking my phone out.

You to 'louise':

Im in your bedroom. Hurry up before I change my mind.

Within a minute Heath was already in the room kissing me, I pulled away looking him in the eye "we dont tell anyone. okay?" he nodded "our dirty little secret"