I'm Willing To Wait For You (A Hamilton College AU)

Chapter 36

So I know I thought this was gone be a random chapter but then I got this idea soooooooooo yeah. Warning: mention of suicide and abuse.
***

Hey Dad, I'm Gay

Alex's P.O.V

It's been about a week since John and I got back together. I know this sounds cheesy as hell, but our separation kinda made us closer.

When I thought I'd lost him, it made me realize how much I took him for granted.  Our 'break' left me emotionally drained. You know that feeling when your walking up a flight of stairs, and you think there's another step but there isn't, and for a few seconds you're left in a state of panic and confusion? Well imagine that feeling, times ten, and lasting much longer than a few seconds. Add on depression, exhaustion, and  anxiety, and you've got a pretty good picture of what I felt like for that entire week we were apart.

"Hey John", I called. He turned around to face me. I pat a spot on the bed beside me. "I need to talk to you."

He sits beside me. "Is something wrong?" He more worried than he's letting on. I can here it in his voice.

"No, nothings wrong", I assure him. "I just need to talk to you about something."

"OK. Wassup?"

I take a deep breath. "I think I'm gonna start taking my depression medication again."

He raised his eyebrows. "Again? I didn't know you were taking them in the first place."

"I wasn't. I mean I was..... Kinda."

I think I just confused him more.

"After my mom died, I moved in with my cousin. He was paying for my meds. For a long time I was taking them, and they worked. Then, a month before school, he committed suicide."

John holds my hand. "After he died", I continue "I didn't have any money to buy more so-"

"I'll pay for them", he says decidedly.

"John you don't need to do that."

"Alexander I'm serious."

"No really you don't need to do that. I just looked it up. My insurance will cover it. I can go fill a prescription in a few days when I get my cast off", I say.

"You know that I will support you. And if this will help you, then I'm for it. But you can't do it for me.  Make sure your doing this to make you happy."

"John, I know. I really need to do this. I just wanted to tell you about it first."

"Whatever makes you happy, babe, I'm down for it." He smiles and kisses me on my temple.

John's P.O.V

My phone starts to faintly glow as it vibrates. I look up from my copy of Why The Caged Birds Sings. Putting my book aside I sit up from my bed and pick up my phone. 

Incoming Call from Unknown Number

I shrug and decline the call. I go back to reading my book. No less than five minutes later, my phone rings again. It's from the same number.  I roll my eyes in annoyance, but answer the phone.