Faking crazy

Part 2

Ready Or not ;

"Stop that tapping would you?" I glanced up at the young girl sitting across from me. Her face was scrunched up in annoyance. I straightened my back, resting my chin on my hand. I was waiting to be checked into Saint Clairesahues' inpatient hospital . I was not looking foward to this.

"Ellie Goornstein..?" The girl who was glaring at me stood up and pushed her dark brown hair behind her ear and walking off into the office. I sighed thinking about the recent events that got me here. This was a load of shit, I should not be here. I should be home with .. with my parents- well in a perfect world that is.

"Lillith? Lillith Mooren?" I stood up and followed the young woman who called me name.

"Follow me sweetie." Dreading every step I took, I followed her into the office.
"You can sit here sweetie this shouldn't take too long." I sat down waiting for further instructions. Praying I wouldn't have to say much. She handed me some papers to fill out.
There had to be about 10 of them,
I sighed aggravated picking up the pen.
Why couldn't my Aunt or Uncle do this?
Not like they would know any of these things about me anyway, let alone my birthday. They even asked if I was ever pregnant before! I scrunched my face up when I read that. I guess that's for medication purposes... still that's rather personal. I sighed checking off the rest of the paper work

Once all I finished, they took everything I had on me, they called it 'contraband'. Cellphone, ipod, cigarettes, ect.

They really like to leave you high and dry here. Then Nancy led me too my bunk, where I met my new roommate:

Karla.

"Lilith this is Karla, she will be your roommate for the reminder of your stay here she'll help you get settled in."

"I got it from here Nancy." Karla smiled at her.

Nancy, I'm assuming thats her name, nodded and left me to unpack.

"I'm Karla, do you want help unpacking there..?" Karla stood up peering down at my suitcase.

I shook my head, plopping the suitcase on the bed.

I can't believe I'm here. I felt so out of breath for no reason, I guess this is what anxiety is. Maybe this isn't such a bad thing that I'm here then. I shook the thought away and began unpacking my clothing. I wonder how long I'd be here.
Maybe they'd keep here until I'm 18.. maybe it better than going back with them. I pulled out my jewelry box and stopped.

"You better hide hide that if it has anything valuable in it. They will take it." I looked up at karla who glancing down at the box, then her eyes met mine. I gave her a weird look.

"Its true Hailey had a gold cross necklace.. and she was wearing it on her second day here .. of course John saw it and took from her saying it was 'pointy' and could be used as a weapon." Karla rolled her eyes looking back at her magazine.

"Piece of shit probably sold it by now. ." She mumbled.

Well shit. Maybe I'd rather be stuck with my aunt and uncle.. I shoved the jewelry box under the mattress and continued unpacking the rest of my things.

"Smart.." Karla mumbled impressed, putting down her magazine and hopping off her bed. "When you're finished I'll give ya the grand tour." She said plopping a piece of gum into her mouth and handing me a piece. I stared at it for a moment and glanced back up at her.

I took it surprised by her kindness. Once I finished unpacking, Karla showed me around. There was a few classrooms, a room for group, and 'quiet' room that actually was rather nice, it was padded, but they also had bean bags and books to read and paper to draw on. 
Interesting.

"And this is the downtime room, we have another room similar to it but its more so study hall its on the other side of the building with the classrooms." Karla explained. I nodded as we headed back. "It'll be lunch time soon so we will head over there now..anyway..  I don't want to come off rude but.. do you, you know talk? You haven't said a word since you got here.. which is fine but.. are you okay?"

I stopped walking, looking at my feet. I remember when I was little, I ignored my dad for almost a whole day because he wouldn't buy me ice cream when mom promised I could have some. He thought I was full of shit. I begged and pouted until I finally gave up and just straight up ignored him. He did not like that. It was kinda funny when I got home mom asked him why I wasn't speaking and when he told her she couldn't stop laughing. At the time I didn't get why it was so funny--

"Hey! Are you okay?" Karla was looking back at me. I felt my face heat up a bit, how long have I been zoned out for? Karla started laughing, she most of picked up on my embarrassment, I guess it was obvious without saying so.

"Don't worry about it lets  go get lunch." She gave me a warm smile and lead the way.
Frankly, I was relieved.

Karla introduced me to her table mates as we sat down for lunch.
"Hey guys this Is Lilith, she just got here today," she turned to me,  "and  this is Emma, Hailey, Dom, and Terrance, we call him Terry for short." I gave wave and a small smile and sat down next to Karla and Terry. They all seemed pretty nice and had a good sense of humor.. they all seemed... normal. But who is to say anyones normal-- What I really am wondering is why are they are here? Surely not for the reason I am..

"So Lilith where are you from?" I snapped out of my thoughts and blinked up to see everyone looking at me. I opened my mouth hesitantly, but no words came out.

Karla noticed I still wasn't ready to talk and pitched in, "They said you were from Palm beach.. right?" I nodded, even thought technically thats not where I'm from, thats where my aunt and uncle live. I moved to Florida only a month ago. I'm originally from PA, but I moved to upstate New York when I turned 8. I frowned, missing my home in New york.

"Oh I'm from there too!" Terry grinned. I smiled back at him. They continued their chatter I would smile and nod every now and then and eat my food. I tried to at least. Once lunch finished, I went to the garbage can to toss the reminder of my food. I turned and jumped.

"Oh hunny! I'm sorry I didn't mean to startle you. I'm Ellen, I'll be your therapist for your time here, We're going to have our first session in 30 minutes one of the counselors will escort you to me. You can go to your room for now and relax a but okay?" I blinked a bit, and finally nodded slowly. Ellen smiled and left. That woman spooked me there for a moment. I headed back to my room to "relax" for a bit until a counselor came to get me. I slumped down in my bed and stared at the end of the bed. I wasn't sure if I was prepared for this. I wasn't ready to even talk, let alone open up to anyone. But it didn't matter wether I was ready Or not. The knock on the door pulled me from my thoughts.

Because Ready or not, here it comes.

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